Feb 17, 2014

Breaking the TEAL SPELL -- UPDATE: The Noncasts

Crossposted from Reflections Journal.

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Update: The Noncasts (See Below)

Further Update: Blake Addresses Jason Freedman Mystery (See Below)

Yet Another Update: Kicking "Tealers" Down the Memory Hole (See Below)


Some years ago, when I was doing the Flower of Life teacher training with Drunvalo Melchizedek, one of my fellow travelers shared with me that he was troubled by what he called the "Drunvalettes." The term was his own invention but there was no mistaking his meaning. He even pegged a few of our classmates with that term. He liked Drunvalo quite a bit but that there was this kind of adulation by some Flower of Life folks made him uncomfortable. He had some concern that Drunvalo might have been fostering this unquestioning sycophancy. So one day when we were enjoying a break, he asked Drunvalo very directly how he felt about his Drunvalettes.

Dru shook his head and sighed. "I just try to stay out of it," he said.

That's one approach. There's a conversation to be had, for sure, about whether ignoring the phenomenon and trying to distance oneself from it is enough. Is it necessary to more actively discourage such behavior? But I think the one thing we were all in agreement on -- Drunvalo, myself, and the gentleman who raised the concern -- was that such hero worship was not a good or healthy thing.

The term "tealer" has similarly been thrown around to describe those who've drunk the "teal-aid." Some of her more passionate and angry defenders who've posted on my blog have been quite pejoratively labeled "tealers" by other commenters. So imagine my horror when I read this in a recent TEAL post about her seminar in Atlanta.

I am struck by how much the imprint of the days of slavery still remains on some of the older buildings and railways here in town. It has soaked its way especially into the old wood that dots the brick walls. The venue for yesterday’s workshop was one such a building. It was a fitting energy, seeing as how the theme of the entire workshop was self-liberation.

This group which is being called the “Tealers” is the most open minded, eccentrically intellectual group I have ever beheld.  I think it is now my favorite part of holding these workshops.  Long-term friendships are formed.  People find their place to belong. And I get to witness the fact that this world is in good hands.  All across the globe, they form a supportive web of awakening.  They touch the lives of the people in the cities they live in.  It is like a little legion of enlightened spirits, whose practice is that of non-resistance and expansion.

You're Freeeee! Wait. Not so fast.



TEAL's posts are always a box of contradictions. The scenery is beautiful. The people are lovely. The town oozes its fetid history from every nook and cranny. Life is beautiful and filled with joy. I wander through a briar patch of PTSD triggers that hurl me into seizures and despair. My life is so rich and full that I've written a how-to book on self-love. Everything reminds me of my ritual abuse and being sewn into corpses.

And, bonus! This post comes with a healthy dose of bigotry... and, for good measure, a naked lady.

But I digress. She actually wants "tealers." It's positively Orwellian. You too can be liberated if only you will define yourself by your adoration of TEAL.


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As I said in my first post on the topic, I have never seen a spiritual teacher who has so blatantly courted adulation and fostered dependency. What I've learned two posts and volumes of feedback later is that it's so much worse than I thought.

Recently, yet another TEAL related Facebook group launched: Teal Tribe Dating. That might not be so bad right? A nice little meeting place for people of similar interests under her general auspices. But then I read the copy.


Teal Tribe Dating


"Teal Tribe Dating" is a group for human beings(Well... at least in the 3D) who are single and looking for a loving relationship with a like-minded partner. Teal Tribe turned out to be an easy awesome way for people who are familiar with Teal to find their true friends and soul family, and now you have a chance to meet your true love too. That idea works by the law of attraction: The vibration in this group is high because of the high vibrational message of Teal Scott; Which means meeting high quality and spiritual-minded people. To break the ice, here is a suggestion for introducing yourself:

. . .

Favorite Teal's Video/Art/Quotes:

*To search for profiles go into the 'Photos' tab and click the desired category... [All emphases mine]

Yes, you are part of an elite group of "high vibrational" people because you like TEAL. TEAL's followers are your true soul family. And you can all bond based on your shared devotion to TEAL. You can even find the love of your life as long as it's really all about ♥ TEAL ♥.

This all looks more and more cultish by the day. I can't help thinking of the Moonies and their arranged, mass weddings.

Obviously, Teal Tribe is not a cult like Unification, Hare Krishna, or other highly organized groups. It's not a totalitarian regime. But there are definitely cultish elements. It's enough, in my mind, to be concerning. I say this, in part, because of what I'm hearing from people, publicly and privately, about having difficulty extricating loved ones or even disengaging themselves from her strange pull.

Much of the feedback I've gotten has been from people who described themselves as having been "obsessed" with TEAL, or words very much to that effect. Some said their interest moved rapidly from interest in what she was saying to fascination with her and the soap opera that is her life.

That she turned her life into a kind of reality show called Shadow House, which opened a window into her "intentional family," fed the fascination. Her life is decidedly more interesting than her spiritual teachings. It's full of sex, fights, verbal abuse, and melodrama. Some of these programs made viewers privy to things like TEAL's humiliation of the aforementioned Fallon and also of a gal named Cameron, whose major crime appears to have been that Blake was attracted to her. The fourth wall was torn down completely as viewers made the whole thing interactive. The audience participation portion involved TEAL fans taking to chat, Facebook, and Teal Tribe to verbally assault these people for their grievous mistreatment of TEAL. Anyone who questioned TEAL's treatment of them was likewise set upon by the group.

Anyone who has ever witnessed the vitriol that TEAL inspires in her fans when they seek to defend her would have to wonder just what is meant by "high vibrational."

As I said in that first post, the Fallon episode suggested the confessional element of cult behavior referenced by Robert J. Lifton, as Fallon opened himself to group abasement for his "sociopathic" behavior. As I've learned more about these Shadow House livestreams from those who've viewed them, I've realized that it fits that criterion even more directly than I'd first thought. In Shadow House events, TEAL puts her "family" members in the hot seat and scrutinizes their shadows. Any viewer of these broadcasts would become privy to very personal, private information about her inner circle. According to many accounts, Cameron was compelled to participate over her objections. It ended badly and ultimately caused her to quit the area. This description of the confession element of cult indoctrination is adapted from Lifton.

Sins, as defined by the group, are to be confessed either to a personal monitor or publicly to the group. There is no confidentiality: members' sins, attitudes, and faults are discussed and exploited by the leaders.

Closely related to the demand for absolute purity is an obsession with personal confession. Confession is carried beyond its ordinary religious, legal, and therapeutic expressions to the point of becoming a cult in itself. (Page 425.)

Public confessional periods are used to get members to verbalize and discuss their innermost fears and anxieties as well as past imperfections.

The environment demands that personal boundaries are destroyed and that every thought, feeling, or action that does not conform with the group's rules be confessed.

Members have little or no privacy, physically or mentally.

In assessing the shadows of her housemates, TEAL relies heavily on Byron Katie's "The Work" for methodology. Katie is, herself, on the radar of cult watchers and accounts of her antics certainly do raise an eyebrow. For instance, she also does a homeless exercise very like, if not identical to, the one practiced by James Arthur Ray that resulted in the mysterious death of Colleen Conaway.

I would encourage those familiar with TEAL's organization to look over some of the cult literature linked herein. These two pages include characteristics identified by a number of cult researchers: Intro to Cults 101 and Cult Characteristics. I'm not as acquainted with the inner workings of TEAL world as many readers are but even I can see that these pages point to any number of red flags.

For instance  Rick Ross claims, "Anything the group/leader does can be justified no matter how harsh or harmful." TEAL's vicious attacks on Fallon and Cameron as well as other thoroughly embarrassing Shadow House outbursts are not only justified but extolled as a virtue. TEAL is courageously showing the world her shadow side instead of hiding it like typical gurus, it is claimed. 

Cults are typically formed around charismatic leadership. Lifton observed, "The guru is worshipped, rather than the principles or doctrines (on which the sect is supposed to be based)." As stated, for many of TEAL's followers, the days and nights of Teal Bosworth Scott Swan have upstaged her spiritual teachings. She has made her personal life a major focus of her work, with her Shadow House livestream events and her confessional style blogging.

The American Family Foundation says, "The group is focused on a living leader to whom members seem to display excessively zealous, unquestioning commitment." As discussed, her defenders are passionate, indeed, as I and other critics have learned the hard way.

Carol Giambavo puts it like this: "Charismatic or messianic leader who is self-appointed and has a special mission in life." To say that TEAL is self-appointed and has announced a "special mission" would be to understate her accounting. As discussed, she has described herself as a Eucharist projected here by an Arcturian panel and genetically engineered to be white and beautiful enough to be heard on "every single continent." 





This, again, is the interview in which she explains in painful detail why it was so critical that she have universally appealing features. But not only is she more attractive than those poor, ugly African women, she's not like the rest of us mere mortals at all. She's not even really human.

(9:30) So I am a soul fork. What that means is from nonphysical energy -- so most people in the planet, they're non-physical energy that is projected forth into a physical human body. I am non-physical energy that is perfect-projected forth into an Arcturian body -- an extraterrestrial body. Now that extraterrestrial being has chosen to then project forth as a human body twelve times. This is the twelfth incarnation. And it's quite, it's quite funny, ironically, because before I even came down, um, there was an entire panel of beings, Arcturian beings, sixth dimensional beings, who even chose the way I would look in this life....

(16:15) I'm now three points of perspective. Most people are two. Most people are the higher self and their human perspective, two points of perspective. I'm three, human, extraterrestrial, and nonphysical.

Special. She's very, very special. She also has no idea what irony means, because there is nothing in that story that is remotely ironic.

By virtue of her specialness, her followers are also special. As stated, they are "high vibrational."

As per the American Family Foundation, "The group is elitist, claiming a special, exalted status for itself, its leader(s), and members (for example: the leader is considered the Messiah or an avatar; the group and/or the leader has a special mission to save humanity)."

You mean like a "supportive web of awakening" or a "little legion of enlightened spirits" who are devoted to an Arcturian projecting into human flesh to act as a Eucharist?

"Tealers" and "Teal Tribe Dating" members are told they've found their "place to belong" and their "true friends and soul family." It sounds an awful lot like the "love bombing" described by the Cult Information Centre: "Creating a sense of family and belonging through hugging, kissing, touching and flattery."

According to  the American Family Foundation, "Questioning, doubt, and dissent are discouraged or even punished." Or as Steven Hassan puts it, "No critical questions about leader, doctrine, or policy seen as legitimate."

Many people report having had their comments deleted from TEAL's blog, when they raised uncomfortable questions or pointed out discrepancies. References to these deletions -- or having such comments held up in moderation -- are peppered throughout the comments on the two previous posts. Notably, a frequent commenter on TEAL's blog named Lena had her account deleted with her entire comment history. When this deletion was called out in the comments on my blog and then by regulars on TEAL's blog, Blake finally responded. He claimed that it was an error on the part of an overzealous admin who did so out of love for TEAL. I asked Blake to explain how it was that his claimed no-censorship policy was never adequately communicated to the admin and why it was that so many reported having been censored. That was weeks ago. He has never responded to my query. That exchange, such as it was, can be found here.

More to the point, consider how TEAL has responded to the questions I have raised in my two posts. She has called me a "hater" who "crawled out of the woodwork" to try to co-opt her growing fame. She has accused me of causing her great emotional pain. Her posts in response to my questions serve to polarize her most devoted followers against the very act of raising questions or having doubts. It solidifies an "us vs. them" attitude towards anyone who would dare question, which Hassan identifies as one of the methods of "thought control."

"Whenever the group/leader is criticized or questioned it is characterized as 'persecution'," says Rick Ross. In TEAL's case, it's morphing into paranoia. In a recent post, she cites her critics as justification for ramping up the already very noticeable security.

I’m sure some people are wondering why I bother having security personnel at my workshops if I teach (and believe) the concept of “I create my own reality”.  So I wanted to explain it to you.

. . .

Part of the contrast involved with fame is the contrast of having “haters” and “antagonists”.  We chose the potential of this contrast before even coming into this life.  We chose it for the sake of our own expansion.  The experience of these types of interactions and people, leads to the desire and therefore creation of staying true to ourself regardless of opposition, benevolence, unity, appreciative focus and love within our own lives and within the universe.  This is part of why we chose the “fame path” to begin with over other paths we could have chosen.

Another cult indicator is a lack of fiscal transparency. As Rick Ross puts it, there is "No meaningful financial disclosure regarding budget, expenses such as an independently audited financial statement." The billboard campaign is illustrative. After a number of people mentioned in comments on my blog that they wondered what had happened to all the donations to this project, the issue magically appeared in a new blog post. (That there is a call and response thing going on between my blog and her posts has been noted repeatedly.) But this explanation was at least a day late and a buck or two short.

As per usual, there is an enormous learning curve with any new endeavor.  The first crowd funding campaign we did accomplished almost nothing.  The perks we offered turned out to be almost as expensive to create and provide as the money people were donating.  On top of that, one of the people helping with the campaign, offered a perk that wasn’t his to offer due to a copyright someone else had on his work, so we ended up being forced to pay a bunch of money to a third party person for a perk that had already been delivered.  In the end, we made too little money in profits to accomplish many of our goals.  But having learned our lesson the hard way, we are planning in the near future to start another campaign with the very same aim.

So, it would appear that TEAL's idea of financial disclosure goes something like this: All that money you all donated? It's pretty much gone with nothing to show for it. Can we have some more?

Use of "deception" in recruiting and fundraising is cited by Hasssan, Giambalvo, and the U of C, but it also kind of goes without saying, doesn't it? Aside from the murkiness about people's donations, there's a lot about TEAL's claims that raises questions. Of course, whether or not she was specially designed by an Arcturian panel is a little hard to validate one way or the other. Such "revealed knowledge" is integral to many a religious experience but the difficulty in fact-checking means we accept it on faith or we don't.

But there is also a lack of empirical proof to things like her very central claim of Satanic ritual abuse. Many such claims were made in the 80s and 90s. But TEAL herself admits that there's no evidence other than the say-so of victims like herself and claims that most of those are too terrified to come forward.

As I wrote before, to TEAL's great consternation, the FBI investigated claims of Satanic ritual abuse and found there was no real evidence. Psychologists and other experts who testified in court cases against abusers have since been discredited and largely discounted as it's come to light that false memories can be implanted during therapy. That said, a great deal of TEAL's narrative comes apart if that doesn't happen to be true. In fairness, she may believe it whether or not it's true.

When I was looking into Byron Katie for this post, I came across another troubling bit of information. Her story of awakening and TEAL's are strikingly similar. Both involve insects which inspired radical shifts in perspective during very dark passages in their lives.




TEAL's story of the "little ant" that awakened her to the awareness of life teeming merrily all around her even as she was confined to a hole by her Mormon Satanist abuser starts at about the 17:00 minute mark. The inappropriate laughter as she begins to tell it is particularly jarring.

Byron Katie's story of awakening while staring at a cockroach can be found here.

Less than two weeks after I entered the halfway house, my life changed completely. What follows is a very approximate account.

One morning I woke up. I had been sleeping on the floor as usual. Nothing special had happened the night before; I just opened my eyes. But I was seeing without concepts, without thoughts or an internal story. There was no me. It was as if something else had woken up. It opened its eyes. It was looking through Katie's eyes. And it was crisp, it was clear, it was new, it had never been here before. Everything was unrecognizable. And it was so delighted! Laughter welled up from the depths and just poured out. It breathed and was ecstasy. It was intoxicated with joy: totally greedy for everything. There was nothing separate, nothing unacceptable to it. Everything was its very own self. For the first time I — it — experienced the love of its own life. I — it —was amazed

In trying to be as accurate as possible, I am using the word “it” for this delighted, loving awareness, in which there was no me or world, and in which everything was included. There just isn't another way to say how completely new and fresh the awareness was. There was no I observing the “it.” There was nothing but the “it.” And even the realization of an “it” came later.

Let me say this in a different way. A foot appeared; there was a cockroach crawling over it. It opened its eyes, and there was something on the foot; or there was something on the foot, and then it opened its eyes — I don't know the sequence, because there was no time in any of this. So, to put it in slow motion: it opened its eyes, looked down at the foot, a cockroach was crawling across the ankle, and … it was awake! It was born. And from then on, it's been observing. But there wasn't a subject or an object. It was — is — everything it saw. There's no separation in it, anywhere.

In the midst of this experience, the four questions that would go on to define "The Work" were born: Is it true or can I really know that it's true? How do I react when I think that thought? Can I find one peaceful reason to believe that thought? Who would I be without the thought?

So, here we have two women, in the depths of despair, after years of suffering, who both realized they could simply shift their perspective while staring at bugs. It's a little coincidental, doncha think? And Byron Katie is one of the only sources TEAL acknowledges drawing from.

I still have a hard time seeing how either of these teachings differ from telling people they can heal themselves through willful denial, but that's probably a discussion for another day.


"To us it's all about truth. And we have an addiction to it. We have this absolute addiction. Worldwide addiction to the idea that we have to know what is true, which is just ridiculous. Because most of us are killing ourselves with what we think is true. So the question is why do you want truth to begin with? I want truth 'cause I think I will be happier if I have truth. Okay, well what if the truth is this and that makes you feel like crap. Does that really make you feel better? Why are we going about it the long way? Why not just decide that what matters is that you feel good? It's the only reason you want truth anyway. And most of the time when people realize that, life becomes a bit more soft. You know? It becomes a bit more about does this benefit me, not is it true." ~ TEAL


It has been suggested by many people, myself included, that TEAL sounds an awful lot like Abraham-Hicks. But TEAL says no. At around minute 20:00 in the Nova Zem interview posted above, she says she'd only learned about Abraham channeler Esther Hicks about a year before because "someone" who was listening to her drew the comparison. She gives Abraham-Hicks a pat on the head for being the "most accurate" of channelers but this comes in the midst of her explaining why what she does is so much better than channeling. She really is a higher consciousness being. She's not just channeling one, which is all we ordinary humans can do.

That interview took place in March of 2013. But Blake Dyer, who is pretty much her right hand, knew about the Abraham teachings at least as far back as March of 2011, two years, not one year before. Now is it possible that there's some confusion about the dates? Sure. Is it possible that she and Blake didn't confer? Maybe. Is it possible that it's entirely coincidental that TEAL's teachings are "effectively identical" to those of Abraham-Hicks, as a commenter noted in response to Blake? I guess it's possible. What is stranger is just how it is that we know Blake was familiar with Abraham-Hicks in March of 2011. It's because we know to a near certainty that Blake was at that time doing a lot of his TEAL promotion under the name of Jason Freedman, who wrote this comment on an Abraham-Hicks discussion forum.

Hello all,
I am a free lance journalist who is a long time devotee of a teacher called Teal Scott (The spiritual catalyst)
When I was discussing Teal's teachings to a friend a while back, they said wow... That sounds just like what Abraham is saying. So, I decided to check it out.
I love the messages of both these Teachers (which are so very similar) I can't tell you the good it has brought to my life. I believe we are presented teachers just when we need them most.

How do we know that this Jason Freedman was actually Blake? Therein hangs a tale.

Soon after I did my first post on the woman then known as Teal Scott, a gentleman commenting under the moniker Mykeyta offered some background. He had once considered her ex-husband Mark Scott a good friend. Blake Dyer had also been a friend. The friendships were strained by his growing discomfort with TEAL's many claims and their absorption in her ambition. When an opinion piece was published in the local paper, discussing TEAL's claims of Satanic ritual abuse, he was troubled by the swarm attack on the editor who wrote it and any other commenter who didn't accept her story at face value. More than one of them were evocative of his friend Blake so he came to the conclusion that TEAL's "army" was largely made up of sock puppets. In particular there are several comments in that thread by Jason Freedman. Mykeyta found that Mr. Freedman had written the "puff piece" I mentioned in that post. He also noted that the picture of Mr. Freedman looked an awful lot like Blake Dyer. He called the number listed for Mr. Freedman and found that he also sounded a lot like Blake Dyer.

I don't know Mykeyta any better than I know TEAL or Blake Dyer or anyone else in their sphere, but to me his story had the ring of truth. More than TEAL's stories do at any rate. A photo taken from a distance in front of the Great Wall of China -- a place he knew Blake had been -- and his account of vocal recognition make for an intriguing story, but they're not evidence.

Flash forward to a couple of days ago when, on my second blog post on the subject, Mykeyta recounted the story to someone who very understandably hadn't read the 1000+ comments on these two posts. Another person called Ima Guest had been having trouble posting some comments due to computer issues but emailed me something more like documentary proof that Blake Dyer and Jason Freedman are one and the same. And it all comes down to that phone number.

Here's the number for Jason Freedman:


Jason Freedman Number

Jason Freedman Detail


Here's the number for TEAL's Frequency Jewelry:


Frequency Jewelry

Frequency Jewelry Detail


Here's the number for Blake Dyer:


Blake's Number


Here's what happens when you put the phone number in Google:


google 8019499651


I think it's pretty safe to say at this point that Jason Freedman is Blake Dyer.

This would mean that Blake Dyer, under a pseudonym, wrote up an interview with a former girlfriend to promote a business, Teal Eye LLC, of which he is the Director. He did not disclose his close association with TEAL or her business. Instead he posed as a fictional reporter "who writes for periodicals both nationally and internationally," but whose byline, strangely, only seems to bring up that one story in searches.

Worse, he used this fake persona, once again, to comment on the Herald Journal piece where he argued from authority as a reporter with a twenty year career. These comments appear alongside other comments from sundyer, Blake's official moniker, and who knows how many other socks.

Mr. Freedman wrote three comments in response to that column. They are the only comments he has  posted to date to the Herald Journal.

His first comment, posted at 10:25 am on Mon, Mar 28, 2011:

I'm totally appalled by the mocking and disbelieving tone of this article. "Just another reader" and "Bluto" and "DL in Den"... you are full of crap. I have worked for 20 years in investigative journalism,. I have seen reports like this one float across the desks of reporters only to be ignored because no one likes to touch these stories. Not because they are not true but because society is not ready to face the bitter reality that it does happen and did happen this time. Society's blind ignorance to this happening is why it continues to happen. I'm totally Ashamed that any of you would think this woman would have anything to gain from telling her story. Instead, she risks everything. She risks her own safety, credibility and connection by admitting these things. Women like her are the rare, brave, exception to the rule of silent victims. Anyone who does not stand beside her participates in silencing victims and therefore siding with perpetrators everywhere. Perpetrators BANK on victims being discredited as some of you have done.
SHAME ON YOU FOR YOUR IGNORANCE AND THE HARM IT CAUSES.
the only reason the columnist mentioned her book (which aside from the foreword has nothing to do with abuse) is because he saw an interview with her in it talking about the book on Park City TV. The book is the reason he even heard this story.
He admitted this himself.
I thought this editor did an injustice to victims everywhere by releasing this column with a "tale tale" tone to it.
That was the only thing "LAME" about this article.
I'm embarrassed to be human today having read some of the un supportive comments that are being written about this.

His second comment, posted at 6:57 pm on Mon, Mar 28, 2011:

I got very upset about that. I did not mean to be insulting. The issue is this... I happen to have done a lot of journalism in jails where I talked to three separate prisoners who confessed to me directly about how they would go about mentally programming children. I have heard it from the horse's mouth. Not the victim's mouths.
Visit this link for a bit...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sUfzWTem15E (first of eight videos)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcrowF-UvhY
http://ritualabuse.us/
and http://ritualabuse.us/ritualabuse/studies/satanic-ritual-abuse-evidence-with-information-on-the-mcmartin-preschool-case/
and
http://ritualabuse.us/newsletter/

His third comment, posted at 9:02 am on Tue, Mar 29, 2011:

The only reason I can see for people to be so adamant to discredit claims of ritual abuse is if they themselves where practicing participants.

Mr. Freedman also wrote a letter to the editor, making basically the same case.

In response to the article titled “Claims of local torture cult got this editor’s attention,” featured March 27, I am appalled by the disbelieving tone of the article addressing the ritual abuse suffered by the subject of the aforementioned article, “Teal Scott.” I am a freelance journalist who has seen reports of ritual abuse in our state float across the desks of reporters and be ignored for 20 years. This ignorance to the validity of these stories is exactly why they continue to happen in our community. As a result of this article, I have researched Teal Scott myself only to find that she is not to be discredited. It is time that the citizens of Utah came out of ignorance about the ritual abuse (especially satanic ritual abuse) that continues to go on in the state and stood behind those who are brave enough to come out of hiding and say something about it.

If Blake and Freedman are one and the same, as they surely appear to be, that would mean that in order to attack and shame people for questioning the veracity of TEAL's story, he's adopted a fake persona and proffered as evidence prison interviews that never happened during a journalism career history he's made up. Blake Dyer has raised mendacity to an art form.

Pay attention, TEAL. That is irony.

Speaking for myself, a realization of that kind of fraud would cause me to become disillusioned. Disillusionment is painful, but I prefer it to the alternative -- believing in an illusion. I guess I'm one of those people who's addicted to truth.

I have experienced similar disillusionment. I have learned to my great dismay that teachers I have followed were not what they appeared to be and even that they were baldfaced liars. I have discovered that I was being manipulated and mislead. It was painful. It did not "feel good" to learn it. I'm still glad I learned it because it freed me up to seek elsewhere for spiritual education and guidance.

And I have felt very foolish. Like many people, I used to think that I was too smart to fall for con artists and cult leaders. I was wrong. It was humbling. But humility is a great place from which to start over.


"When I hear someone say that only stupid people fall for fraud, I feel like asking for that person’s phone number. But here’s the thing: I didn’t want to talk to stupid people, because stupid people don’t have $50,000 lying around to give me. You would be amazed at how many doctors, lawyers, engineers, and college professors I have ripped off. The bottom line is, fraud is a crime that can happen to anyone, given the right con artist and a victim with the right set of circumstances." ~ The Anonymous Confessions of a Con Artist


In the comments, following my last post on TEAL, a woman named Becky asked what I and other commenters recommended for spiritual guidance and inspiration to fill the gap left by TEAL. It was a good conversation that can be read in full starting on the first page of comments on that post. I'd like to address it here because my rather lengthy attempt to address it in the comments was eaten by blogger. But also because I think it's a good jumping off point to a larger conversation about healing after this kind of disillusionment.

I was thinking about how defensive people get on the whole Teal subject, and why that is... It occurs to me that maybe it's because in a way she gives a lot of people hope. People hear her story and feel empowered by it, if she can "beat those odds" maybe they can too.

I think they start to get angry because they might feel betrayed by Teal when the story starts to fall apart, and that hopeless feeling starts to return. That's probably a space a lot of people don't want to go back to, so they live in denial about the story crumbling, but they still have to direct that anger somewhere.

Somehow the phrase "Don't shoot the messenger" comes to mind. A lot of people are taking this stuff very personally and it might be a good idea to ask why that is?

I was just thinking about my thought process through all of this, how my emotions came into play when I was trying to figure out where I stand on all this Teal stuff.
I guess I'm asking, what else has helped you, what gives you hope? What inspires you? What's helped you grow as a person?

I'm curious about what resources you trust that you would direct people to if they wanted better themselves, but didn't necessarily know where to go?

What she is describing in the first part of that comment is cognitive dissonance and it's key to understanding manipulation and indoctrination. Leon Festinger did the seminal research in the 1950s. I touched on this briefly here, as well. Festinger theorized that people are most comfortable when their thoughts, feelings, and actions, are all congruent. Among other things, this means that we are strongly motivated to continue believing falsehoods if no longer believing them comes into conflict with life choices we've made, money we've laid out, and happiness we've attained by believing in them. So very often we will cleave to the falsehood with greater ferocity to protect our own sense of inner harmony.

I am always a little reticent to make general recommendations because there is no one size fits all when it comes to spiritual teaching. In particular, when a person is coming out of a situation where someone has been abusing spiritual authority, as I believe TEAL does, the last thing I want to do is run the risk of further over-running instincts that may be quite damaged.

I will tell readers what I tell my clients. My recommendations are my opinion. If what I say doesn't feel right for you, disregard it.

If you are coming out of any abusive situation, spiritual or otherwise, there is probably soul loss. For that I recommend soul retrieval. I had several soul retrievals with a skilled shaman. They helped me to restore parts lost to abusive teachers and healers. They also helped to restore missing parts that had left me vulnerable to such influences in the first place. They helped, period. My path takes me through shamanism and indigenous teachings so that work is a fit for me. The seminal book on the topic is Soul Retrieval by Sandra Ingerman. For more information, a good resource is Christina Pratt's internet radio show, Why Shamanism Now? The entire catalog can be heard for free on iTunes and other streaming sources. Finding information on some of the relevant broadcasts can be found by searching the word retrieval on my Celestial Reflections blog.

Another great resource for restoring the soul and repairing damaged instincts is Women Who Run With the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estés. I call it, among other things, therapy in a book. It really walks you through a process. I've written more about that book and the power of story here and here.

Mostly, I recommend following your nose and seeing where it leads you. It's just a good idea to get in touch with your instincts and learn to trust your sense of smell first. Christina Pratt talks about bouncing everything off your "truth cord." It helps if you've located that line that runs right through your core.

In much of the developed world, we've been raised to think of God and the paths to God as outside of ourselves and dependent on spiritual authority. We've been acculturated to seek the teacher who speaks with certitude based on things only he or she could know and, as such, bestow upon us. But I think argument from authority is a logical fallacy and have learned to avoid such teachers like the plague. This, in part, is why the "cosmic answer lady" persona in the Ask Teal videos is something I find so off-putting. I don't trust ex cathedra teachings.

Spiritual guidance should take you inward. It should foster your personal relationship with spirit. It shouldn't be about the teacher. No teacher should be giving you answers. They should only be teaching you how to learn.

I don't recommend authors and teachers who tell you that spiritual development is simple, particularly if they give x number of steps. To quote Joseph Campbell, “If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it's not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That's why it's your path.”

There are any number of authors and thinkers I could point to who delight, inform, and inspire me. Their names are peppered throughout my writings. But when I really think about what inspires me, it's not a person. It's spirit. It's my personal relationship with my guides and the pathway to the numinous that runs right up the center of my being. It's the amusing game of finding Easter eggs hidden in the most unexpected books and movies that my guides point me to. It's those moments of reverie that come simply because I am staring at a piece of art or listening to music. It's the constant reminders from the spirit world that even when I think I'm running my own life, I'm not. I'm being led by the hand by something so much wiser than I am and that it is that inner compass that has told me to pick up a certain book or watch a particular movie or go to a certain place at a certain time. I have incredible gratitude to teachers and healers I've worked with like Virginia Sandlin and Christina Pratt. But in the end what I am grateful for is that they consistently pointed me not towards themselves but towards my own connection with all that is.


Addendum: My two previous posts on TEAL are worth reading for additional background and for the phenomenal discussions that have taken place in the comments:

Who and What is Teal Scott
The Artist Formerly Known as Teal Scott


Update: "The Noncasts"


In March of this year, TEAL and her new husband Sarbdeep Swan introduced a new video series called "Tea Time with Teal" -- not Tea Time with The Swans, mind you. TEAL is still the staaahhh! Only her name can appear on the marquee. I think it's in her contract.

These weekly episodes are called "podcasts" but aren't anything of the kind. Whereas podcasts are hosted on a platform, such as iTunes, so that they can be easily downloaded, kept, and enjoyed on other devices, these are just more garden variety YouTube videos. Podcasts are designed to be accessible, easily disseminated, and portable.

Ironically (note the correct use of this word), these not-podcasts are announced only to an email list, are posted on a hidden, unlinked page on her website, and the YouTube videos are set to private. I won't call them podcasts. I have variously referred to them as: stealthcasts, not-podcasts, tea things, narrowcasts, and narrowcasts for tea-sipping pod people.

The icing on the irony cake? The second of these husband and wife discussions was about TEAL's insistence that their private life be open to the public.

These tea things have provided great fodder for discussion in the comment thread for this blog post. The conversations evolved into a regular feature I call the noncasts. These write-ups mirror the subject matter in that they report on discussions of the tea things I've had with my husband. The official title of this series is "How to Drive Your Double PhD Husband Crazy by Making Him Watch TEAL Videos."

As with the tea things, these are not indexed, freestanding posts. If you're interested, you'll have to dig for them. They can only be found in the comment thread for this post. Page searches for the words noncast or tea should get you there.

* Addendum to the Addendum: With the end of teal's marriage to Sarbdeep, comes the definitive end to "Tea Time with Teal," and, therefore, to the noncasts. I will conclude this exercise by adding to this already absurdly long post a complete list of the noncasts. I will include a link to the initial comment of each noncast, for those whose browsers can interpret that, and the page link for the relevant comments.


In those teacasts, we all got to know a third member of teal's menagerie: the frog. He emerged as a star in his own right. Calm and stoical as only a butler of such impeccable credentials can be, he kept his head when all about him were losing theirs. The frog recently launched a video channel and has begun producing videos in the odd hours, as his schedule permits. The first includes his thoughts as interpreted by his growing legion of fans. So, teal, Sarbdeep, and frog, thanks for the memories.





Further Update: Regarding Jason Freedman, et al.


This post raises a question about the odd correlation between Blake Dyer's and Jason Freedman's likeness and phone number. It took an incident in the Teal Tribe Facebook group to get Blake to address this question, but he has. It would have been nice if he'd done so directly with me, but I'll take what I can get.

What I could get was some screenshots given to me by Teal Tribe members of Blake's attempts to explain this odd coincidence, and another oddity involving a claimed psychiatrist, William Macey PHD [sic], who also bear's Blake's likeness. I have discussed this matter in the comments, but it occurs to me that it, in fairness to the reader and to Blake Dyer, it should also be placed in the body of this post.

The following screenshots are not in any particular order and vary in format, as they came from various sources in various forms. I don't actually know how the dialog unfolded. I only know that these questions were raised in the Teal Tribe group and Blake attempted to answer at least some of them.

Blake denied both knowing Jason Freedman and knowing how it is that he came to have the same phone number. He did so more than once as follows:


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Blake acknowledged that the photos used by both Jason Freedman and William Macey were of him, but denied knowing how they came to be associated with either:


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So, my question to Blake, which I posed down in the comments as well, is simply this. How is it that he does not know Jason Freedman? Freedman apparently did a face to face interview with TEAL. Couldn't he just ask her? And if he is in the dark about this interview with the mysterious Mr. Freedman, how is it that he promoted said article on Facebook?


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Yet Another Update: Kicking "Tealers" Down the Memory Hole


It brings me no joy that I must, once again, update this excruciatingly long post. But it's recently come to my attention that teal is trying to rewrite history. Above I quoted a passage from her Korean spa post about the world-changing potential of the "Tealers." At some point between the original publication of that post and its move to her new website, the passage I quoted above was changed and the word "Tealers" removed. But the original text is still visible on the cached version in the internet archive, or wayback machine.

Here is what that passage looked like when it was originally published in 2014.


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Here is what that passage looks like in the current version on her new website.


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Her clean-up was incomplete, however. The word "Tealers" appears further down in the post.


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  1. GA "Although I think that you certainly captured some part of Mr. Sarbdeep, I still think that he has a very precious core motivation towards people in general."

    Be that as it may, the way he and Teal go about enacting their so called precious motivation towards helping people seem to me entirely based satisfying the EGO's motivations... Teal's stated motivations are recognition, significance, fame, money, adoration... Sarbdeep is helping her with this... All of these seem more like ego traps on the search for enlightenment IMO. These "teachers" like Zach Moyer, "The Spiritual Artisan"-Delano, and Jrustin Holme that Teal keeps annointing with her "T Factor" as you put it raise some red flags... If these people are looking to others outside of themselves to fulfill their need for significance the way Teal is teaching them to do... well... I doubt they will end up "Happy" the way Teal is promising them they will...

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  2. GA the old proverb "The Road to hell is paved with good intentions" keeps coming to mind here...

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  3. "Realizing unconditional love is like finding a needle in a haystack. If we want to find a needle in a hay stack, we have to put it there ourselves. we do this by practicing unconditional love with ourselves."

    Oh, that's awesome. So to find unconditional love, first we have to hide it from ourselves. That's just brilliant. That definitely deserved it's own stand-alone, self-quoting quote post. Stellar. Just stellar.

    See, this kinda shit is why I compare her to Tom Friedman. Here's Taibbi on Friedman.

    "Remember Friedman’s take on Bush’s Iraq policy? 'It’s OK to throw out your steering wheel,' he wrote, 'as long as you remember you’re driving without one.' Picture that for a minute. Or how about Friedman’s analysis of America’s foreign policy outlook last May:

    "'The first rule of holes is when you’re in one, stop digging.When you’re in three, bring a lot of shovels.'

    "First of all, how can any single person be in three holes at once? Secondly, what the fuck is he talking about? If you’re supposed to stop digging when you’re in one hole, why should you dig more in three? How does that even begin to make sense? It’s stuff like this that makes me wonder if the editors over at the New York Times editorial page spend their afternoons dropping acid or drinking rubbing alcohol. Sending a line like that into print is the journalism equivalent of a security guard at a nuke plant waving a pair of mullahs in explosive vests through the front gate. It should never, ever happen."

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  4. Reflecting on the blogmentary of the last couple of days, I am happy because LV's blogs are catylysts of new refreshed information (MG) and higher energy (HZ). This means this blog may FACILITATE greater range of consideration and larger mental clarity. This may be considered a positive change agent IMO. This positivity means that the contributions tend over ride the beliefs of embedded mind clutter. If we can let go of beliefs, we increase space for change of mind.

    I have been thinking about what the Joe Dispenza workshop encouraged.....this is my take on some of what he said..... First off...any computer analogies are fairly global and based on the fact that we modeled machines like the brain and nervous system. WE are the ghosts in the machine.

    1. The body is a house of stored information. Some call it the subconscious. The rooms are strung together by information pathways and they may be well compartmentalized. The pathways are tred in familiar patterns. Like the way we tend toward habit in daily routne, the brain and the body are wired into routines.

    The longer the pathways of electrical circuit fire together, the more well they are wired. Only by over riding these circuits may one change through steady application of NEW information and GREATER ENERGY than that keeping the familiar in place. That the owner of the house applies the energy states WE are not the house.

    The rooms may give up information when accessed or accept new information WHEN EMPTY. There is a tendency to hold fast to the info...and 50% of it is NOT TRUE. NOT TRUE means we encoded it in some strange way and if retrieved should yield 50% good info.

    The attachment to the [atterns is a phenomenon of the stress predilection. In the sympathetic stress response, new info is not laid down or laid down "wrong". Such needed aspects of life like learning, digestion, snuggling and cuddling are not facilitated by the state of survival based sympathetic stress response. The ability to think deeply and consider is also not possible.

    Trauma does largely imprint the circuits to be stuck on survival based focus. One forgets that any other way exists and the BODY will also protest if the chemicals that it has learned to depend on cease. That is why breaking habits feels wrong at first and may physically seem painful.

    The habituation of daily life to the stress response is a curious factor of being addicted to the chemicals of stress even though they damage the ability for a happy and satisfied LIFE. The sympathetic parallels the parasympathetic nervous systems. We have been familiarized to the one and lost touch with the other.

    I have been considering TEAL in the light of the info I just relayed. She can be observed to be always in the survival state and her teachings are attempts to justify this state and even continuously trigger this state. If a person says something completely nonsensical, it does trigger stress. Teal entrains stress IMO.

    How often do we hear that great teachers induce a sense of calm? They are in the state of parasympathy and entrain others into a state of relaxation.

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  5. OT, My husband IS a crack up. I don't know how entertaining it would be to watch the process, though. It gets a little surreal. Sometimes it's just several minutes of one or both of us laughing so hard no sound comes out. Then there's all the backing up and listening to the same few sentences over and over again because we just can't believe our fucking ears.

    This last one, even though it was a half hour, we had to take it in two parts. It was partly because I had to take a client, but even after that we decided we needed a good twelve hours to recover so we could bear to listen to the rest of it. Listening to her is actually torturous. Laugh or go mad as they say.

    Case in point, my husband came home a little bit ago and looked at that quote that GA posted and did a spit take. He said, "Did all the lights go out? I smell bread." Because it sounded like the shit stroke victims say. Or it's just tailor made to CAUSE cognitive dissonance, right down the fact that haystack is written two different ways in the same quote.

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  7. GA, hello and i think you are on to something. We endorse meaning that then is iprinted on our lives. The ideal IMo is that we be a genius of ourselves. I spend energy taking in other's works (reader and watcher I am) which is OK IMO. Even if someone we appreciate is less than genius, but if we like them and if we take their meaning that is a stage. But if all we ascribe as meaningful is NOT original, we give the blue ribbon to someone else when we are the deserving recipeints in our own life.

    I wish to observe all of us taking on being genii in the world and creating a magic that is ours because we have it deep down.

    As I suspected, she is overwhelmed by her many roles. So she is setting her priorities straight. Not motherhood first or even relationship or even finishing her book or going on vacation...but
    following the path of least resistance:
    working the promoting know how all thought entrepreneurs work...
    1. Free blogs and videos to make a name
    2. Audience developed until name established
    3. Books and fee based curriculiums.

    This is nauseating here from the blog where she talks about guiding the hapless concerning parenting (no!) and WHAT?

    "I have also found that once you begin to associate a certain voice with positive feelings, hearing that voice has an instant effect on emotions. For this reason, I am hoping that my voice will offer some solace and comfort. I thought about hiring a voice specialist for the job. But the tonality of my voice carries my signature, a signature that resonates at a very specific level. The tonality of my voice is the majority of what will move people into a deeper state of consciousness and so it is essential that they be guided by my voice through these meditations.

    topsecret

    I do not believe in secrets, except when they are kept so as to not spoil a pleasant surprise. So I must confess, I am keeping a little bit of a secret! I am not going to reveal my “secret” yet for the sake of seeing the excitement on your faces and in your comments when I release what I am going to release. But I have figured out a specific collection of meditations that have never been done before. I do not know of anyone else who does this kind of guided meditation because it is seen as “too risky”. This means, I am the perfect person for the job! But I will tell you that when I release this product, the “Teal is out to destroy people”, “Teal is Illuminati” demographic will be all over it like white on rice. I’m such a tease!"

    Becoming MORE controversial by making guided meditation (or are they sultry readings of the kama sutra) that will make us all ask IS SHE THE ILLUMINED HARLOT?

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  8. Maggie I guess you had something like this in your mind? :D
    http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/08678505db/guided-meditation-with-judd-frazier-50in50-wk-41

    just turn him into Teal hahahaha

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  9. or she will go the other rout :D

    http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/80a46e5735/guided-meditation-with-the-billy-llama-beach

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  10. 3 is a good number. Maybe Teal can learn something from him. At least he sticks to the law ( :

    http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/a6dcfb351a/guided-meditation-with-the-billy-llama-median

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  11. hahhahah sorry - DNA Test for Teal hahahaha

    http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/0b1fdd0b83/guided-meditation-with-the-billy-llama-office

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  12. By the way: if somebody is interested in the look of thoughts in 2D

    this comes as close as possible

    http://www.atariarchives.org/artist/images/page35-1.jpg

    they are like a network, many branches, main branch. When you change concepts, the critical mass is reached, like the 100 monkey project.

    Fascinating.

    http://cdnimg.visualizeus.com/thumbs/60/78/drawing-60786444e094c6292923eb55039ef323_h.jpg

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  13. Don't worry, GA. I can see you. Just been busy processing the supermoon. Because yowza! They always whack me out of my skull. But thx for all the great posts. I'll probably deal with that blog post in the noncast because yowza!

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  14. yowza here as well. ok now make sense. wasn't aware of the supermoon. I can't stop laughing

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  15. Noncast: TEAL Wants Money pt 1

    "The best things in life are free
    But you can give them to the birds and bees
    I want money"

    Yes, I like The Flying Lizards cover of the song. They completely stripped it of The Beatles' tongue in cheek irony, which somehow made it both darker and funnier.

    It was hard to get that song out of my head as I listened to the last (ever?) teacast. And again as I read teal's recent blog post about the next phase of her business plan.

    "I have decided to put most of my effort aside from Ask Teal episodes and Podcasts into developing products that help people.  I have begun to write and record guided meditations."

    But what exactly is she saying here? This transition has been discussed in some depth in the comments here. At first blush, it appears that she's saying she won't be doing Ask Teal or not-Podcasts, because she needs to lay that time "aside" for new endeavors. Her word choice is typically bad enough to support that interpretation. But upon rereading that statement, my husband thought, no, maybe she's just left out some very important commas. Perhaps it should read: I have decided to put most of my effort, aside from Ask Teal episodes and Podcasts, into developing products that help people.

    Is she hanging up the YouTube thing OR is she hanging up everything else and focusing on Ask Teal, not-Podcasts, and her new ventures? We don't honestly know which it is. This is why we say, "Use commas. Don't be a psycho."

    Either way, she's very definitely refocusing her efforts on money-making ventures. And that's fine. There's nothing wrong with someone expecting to be paid for their time and creative output. I just wish she'd stop insulting my intelligence with the "I'm just too busy to do it all" crap.

    Of course dropping the YouTube lectures would be a good idea for other reasons. A major difference between her "teaching" via YouTube and guided meditations: One can be fact-checked, the other really can't. Guided meditations don't generally include assertions of fact and, let's be honest, facticity is where teal fails repeatedly and catastrophically. In this "money" teacast, for instance, she completely rewrites several centuries worth of history.

    "Well, we gotta look at the school system, 'cause our school system didn't exist really prior to World War II. I mean you were lucky before then if you ever got any kind of formal education. The most of the people who had education what they had was very wealthy families who could afford paying for governesses and things like that. So the, the public education system came about in the, the age of industrialism. It was post WWII when we suddenly created guess what we need to build jobs and we need to build workers for those jobs and so your school system is designed to build workers for the industry. But in the age of technology that doesn't work anymore, which is why we're giving our children such a poor education about money. It's because in the technological age every lesson you learned about making money is now upside down."

    I guess she's one of those people whose family couldn't afford a governess because she somehow missed out on some very basic knowledge.

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  16. Noncast: TEAL Wants Money pt 2

    Public schools in this country are literally older than the republic itself, having started with the Puritans in the 1600s. While there was definitely some classism and racism involved in its early distribution, education was most definitely not reserved entirely for the wealthy in the early US and it continued to advance with the country's growth. By the mid 1800s Horace Mann pressed for free, compulsory education, and what started in his native Massachusetts proliferated throughout the US, so that by 1918, it was the law of the land. The timeline in Great Britain was similar... And in Germany... And in France... You get the idea. World War II would not begin until 1939, ending in 1945. So, no. Our school system does not trace to WWII. The major educational innovation that started as a result of WWII was the GI Bill that allowed millions of veterans to go to colleges and trade schools. This, in turn, built the American middle class.

    World War II also did not predate industry. The "age of industrialism," or what most of call the Industrial Revolution, began around 1760  and was well underway by the early 1800s. WWII would have been a very different kind of war had it preceded, rather than followed the Industrial Revolution. It would have been fought without all kinds of accoutrement like tanks, planes, submarines, trains, and most of the munitions. So no Blitzkrieg, no Pearl Harbor, no aerial warfare of any kind, no cattle cars full of Jews, no Zyklon B, no mechanized extermination of "genetically inferior" humans, no mushroom clouds over Nagasaki and Hiroshima... A very different war indeed.

    Specific dates aside, a rough timeline of these events and that basic set of facts fall, for most people, into the general category of "the bleedin' obvious." But not for teal.

    "She's Ron fucking Burgundy! 'San Diego, which of course in German means whale's vagina.'" ~ J

    Over the past few months that my husband and I have been reporting on "Tea Time with Teal" it's just been one of these outrageous howlers after another. General knowledge and teal just aren't in the same zip code. And this is to say nothing of the massive failures of logic. Case in point: The last teacast was about how all rules, laws, and any kind of centralized authority are a bad idea, completely "out of alignment" with the universe as teal defines it. This week she explains that these modern attempts to create communal living situations that do away with money are just not workable. Even simple, roundtable, tribal-type counsels fail in their goal because they make societies "vertical." Money, however is an "awesome idea." How on earth she proposes to have any sort of monetary system without a government to back it -- vertical and hierarchical in the extreme -- I have no idea. Where on earth does she think little dollar bills come from?

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  17. Noncast: TEAL Wants Money pt 3

    Let's back up. As teal defines it, money is simply representative of goods and services. It's a step removed from barter. In an ideal sense, she's absolutely right. (She might have actually fact-checked this one.) I have said the same myself on many occasions: money is an abstraction of goods and services, money is necessary because I can't barter with the phone company, etc... I'm on record having made this point on many occasions through the years. And it's absolutely true at the level of average folk working for money and paying their bills with it. But work is how money is derived, not how it's created. It's created by national banks -- in the US it's the Federal Reserve -- and it's produced mostly out of thin air through debt creation. Money itself is debt, not value. Or to look at this another way, money is debt. No matter how you slice it -- and fractional reserve banking slices it pretty fine -- money is debt. That debt is essentially guaranteed by the issuing government, it's value determined by that country's economic and political health.

    So, once again, teal is has managed to tie herself into a pretzel of internal contradiction in under thirty minutes.

    And she's just getting warmed up.

    Around sixteen minutes in, she explains that one of the keys to having money is falling "in love" with money. Not even ten minutes later she responds to a write in question about the difference between money and abundance. "Nothing," says teal. Money and abundance are the same thing. But should people focus on the money or the material things they want? And then she explains:

    "Genius question. Why? Because money is nothing more than trrr, than a, than a basically a representative of, of value so that you can get what it is that you want. So alright, my, if I had my way, people who really hated money, this is the first thing they'd do. They'd make it not about the money and they'd make it about what they needed essentially or wanted. To make it about that we strip out the middle man. Money is a middle man. You could fall in love with a middle man. Yeah, that's really awesome, but why do we really want money? We only ever want money because of what money does for us. So if we're going there first, you actually open the universe in more ways to offer that thing to you so can you see money, I mean saying I need this much money is like, is like limiting the universe to bringing you what you want. Like let's say I wanna buy an RV. Let's go really American here. I wanna buy an RV, right, so in my mind I've already judged that I need money to do that. So the universe is gonna just, because you're an extension of it, agree with whatever conditions you set for it, it's gonna say, alright, so we can only come to you through money. You've now limited the universal scope and all the venues that could bring that abundance to you. Potentially some obscure relative could die and give you an RV. You don't know."

    Sarbdeep has had this happen, the universe providing him with abundance in ways other than money -- like expensive clothes, shoes, trips, and other lovely things from his very wealthy clients. Abundance comes in many forms. We all know that, right? And teal knows that. It's not about the money. It's about the "end result." Money is just the "intermediary."

    But we need to "fall in love with money," she says a minute later. Okaaaay... but I thought money was a middle man, an intermediary, and why would we love a middle man, right? Um...

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  18. Noncast: TEAL Wants Money pt 4

    Oh, and let's not forget that "attitude of gratitude." (It ain't just a platitude.) So, yeah. Consider the abundance you have that... um... poor people from Africa don't... you know... have... and animals... because they don't have... roofs... (Seriously, she really says that.) So the key to visualizing abundance, is to visualize the lack that poor people... and wild animals... have...

    Once again we're in some territory that I've simply never heard of from an LOA person, ever. But, I'm not an LOA person so I really don't give a shit.

    But then, as she's wrapping up at the end, teal fields another question. Why, the writer asks, am I good at manifesting sale prices but not cash. Well, because they're completely different things, says teal. Money is a totally different vibration from catching a great sale price or people "giving you free things." You're in a vibration of "luck" not of manifesting cash. You've acknowledged that you can't pay full price. Whoops, poverty consciousness! Uh oh.

    But, um... remember when she said that abundance and money were the same thing and that we shouldn't limit the way the universe brings us things? Remember when Sarbdeep talked about all the abundance he'd received in the form of people, ahem, giving him free things!!!

    Remember?!

    It was ten fucking minutes ago!!

    So, leave say, consistency is not teal's thing. She can't talk for half an hour without contradicting herself six ways from Sunday. But readers of my blog and these noncasts know that already.

    There was also whole lot of far more typical LOA abundance catechism. Children of rich people keep manifesting wealth because they've never been denied anything and, therefore, don't have a mentality of lack. It couldn't possibly because they have opportunities, education, and just straight up inherited wealth that the less well-heeled lack. It couldn't be that we've been for years now creating a class of superwealth through inheritance that most of us can not even wrap our heads around and that is completely destabilizing the economy overall, reallocating wealth to the the top fraction of a percent. No, it must be their "thoughts."

    Oh, and the utterly douchetastic Donald Trump? He's wealthy because of his "thoughts," too. Not because he's proven he can return on an investment, at least in the short term. It's all about the mind -- not the obvious, you know, economic facts.

    This is, at best, a logical fallacy known as post hoc ergo propter hoc: because this follows that, this caused that. Not only does correlation not prove causation, that it's someone's thoughts isn't even the most obvious correlate.

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  19. Noncast: TEAL Wants Money pt 5

    Aside from the fact that teal can't walk a straight line sober, this was mostly boring, garden variety LOA, abundance stuff. That teal was dressed like a Christian missionary and that the camera was pulled in as tight as it could possibly get -- even tighter than the previous week -- and still couldn't obscure Sarbdeep all but chewing off his own ring finger to dislodge his wedding band, it was really a pretty lackluster outing.

    But I promised I would deal with the aforementioned blog post, and so I shall.

    So, um, yeah...

    Guided meditations you say.

    "I have also found that once you begin to associate a certain voice with positive feelings, hearing that voice has an instant effect on emotions.  For this reason, I am hoping that my voice will offer some solace and comfort.   I thought about hiring a voice specialist for the job.  But the tonality of my voice carries my signature, a signature that resonates at a very specific level.  The tonality of my voice is the majority of what will move people into a deeper state of consciousness and so it is essential that they be guided by my voice through these meditations."

    Dear. God.

    I would rather listen to a guided meditation narrated by Fran Drescher -- not Spinal Tap Fran Drescher, either. Nanny Drescher. For his part, my husband says he'd rather listen to the Carvel guy.

    The "tonality" of teal's voice could make me jump off a bridge. Between that whatever sinister shit she's cooking up...

    "I do not know of anyone else who does this kind of guided meditation because it is seen as 'too risky'.  This means, I am the perfect person for the job!  But I will tell you that when I release this product, the 'Teal is out to destroy people', 'Teal is Illuminati' demographic will be all over it like white on rice."

    ... are suicides fucking inevitable? Even without her challenging people to decide whether they want to live or die? Or is that the big "secret." Are these going to be decide if you want to live or off yourself right fucking now meditations?

    All I know is that teal can't go four paragraphs without going reeeaaaally dark. Paragraphs one, two, and three: I'm launching exciting new business ventures to help people relax! And wear dresses! Paragraph four to end: Child abuse! Isn't it horrible?!

    Whiskey. Tango. Foxtrot.

    Okay, so the gentlest thing I could say here: Maybe this should have been TWO blog posts?!!

    Oh my gods and goddesses... I will soothe people using my very own pinched, insufferable, nasal twang. Golly, there may possibly, slightly, destructive Satanic interludes. Oh, and I'll make some dresses which hopefully won't look like some of the shmattas I've been known wear to high tea. Children are horribly abused and degraded by really bad parents in public.

    Did I mention that she'd be writing these meditations?

    Dear. God.

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  20. :D:D:D

    nobody can ever put it better than you.OMG
    I loved every little word of it. I find myself week for week wondering if you saw this or that to address it in the non-cast and every time you and your hubby surprise me with even more hidden shit-chat of Teal's & Sarbdeep's universe show.

    "All I know is that teal can't go four paragraphs without going reeeaaaally dark. Paragraphs one, two, and three: I'm launching exciting new business ventures to help people relax! And wear dresses! Paragraph four to end: Child abuse! Isn't it horrible?!"

    Very well said and Teal's common strategy to occupy the minds of Tealers with "children suffer" or "I was abused", who just witnessed a straight-in-your-face marketing-sucker-plan, works exceptional well. Keep them busy with either suffering of children or her past suffering. Judging the comments of this specific blogpost shows, that 90% got hang up on the parents torture kids thingy... the other stuff was digested without obvious registration.

    The real reason why she is panicing and cutting her pond casts and ask teal videos short IS:

    1) after getting a summery of your weekly non cast by her stuff, she noticed that this format is inefficient and make her more look dumb than intelligent. She probably also noticed that Sarbdeep is challenging her more than she previously thought. In fact, Sarbdeep"s questions and reactions ARE the main reason why the image of the all knowing arcturian is getting heavy beating.

    2) her book will be published soon and all the new born Tealers should be served a nice little plate with products which they can buy.

    3) The transition from a free content creating platform to a subscription-fee- model is a tricky one and you might piss of a lot of followers picked up along the road. However, the new folks from her book deal will be the new generation of Tealers born straight into the fee system :D Nothing bad about it. If people actually pay for it, the earnings are well deserved.

    But considering her mind structure and the two faces of her voice ( painfully romancing, whisper-moan-voice with bedroom eyes or a squeaky, annoying child-voice on too much sugar) … everybody who chooses to let her enter and overwrite their subconscious mind is in it for a wild ride. Good luck guys. you may find yourself spending all money you have on Teal products. At some near point in future I can see your family members gathering for an intervention, because for some unexplainable reasons you gave all your savings to Teal eye, sold your house and belongings and are left with a pile of meditation MP3 CDs which you will build beds and doll houses for ( ;

    The meditation could end up like this (very likely :D):

    Let your muscles become loose and relaxed, starting with your feet... your ankles....lower legs....knees.... upper legs....pelvis....torso... back....shoulders....arms.... hands....face....and head. -buy my products angel- Feel your body....loose and relaxed.....Turn your attention now to your breathing -heavy breathing, like after an orgasm hihihhi-Notice each breath, without trying to change your breathing in any way.... Just observe.... As thoughts arise, acknowledge them and let them go, returning your attention to your breathing…-donate all you have to Teal Eye--Breathe naturally.... Slowly….Reaaaaaaalllll Slllllooooowwwwwlyyyyyy -I am the arturian sex goddess Teal-As your thoughts wander, simply return your attention to your breathing. Notice your breath as it flows gently in and out of your body….- just like all your money you will happily donate to Teal Swan-- Without any effort…….. :D
    I am sure Blake will figure out a way to play the crucial parts backward….so that it will not be so straight in your face.

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  21. Well I will wrap my Tealventure with the following realization, inspired by the recent super moon which shook my little body with very opposite emotions and feelings:

    When someone points at the moon, don't worship the finger!
    When someone claims to be born on the moon, catalyse him/her back to the moon.
    When someone declares that the moon is the sun, run!

    Dear.God.

    LV:
    Sorry it is hard enough to understand the mystery of commas in german. I never really tried in english. I always recognize intelligent people because they always can make sense of my writing and sayings ( ; ( I think I slowly start thinking and talking like Teal)

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  22. GA, that picture is hilarious and so totally apt. And your three step progression of lunacy... Did you make that up? That's brilliant. But it should be seriously be called The Three Step Progression of Lunacy.

    Remember the words of Voltaire, "Those who can make you believe absurdities, can make you commit atrocities."

    She doesn't just brain pretzel herself. She brain pretzels anyone listening to her with trust and credulity. All around her, heads are swimming.

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  23. For what it's worth, that trick of using guided meditations to sell your products has been done. James Arthur Ray did that. It was referred to as "black magick" by a one time follower. And don't think that incident didn't occur to me when I learned that teal would be doing these "risky" guided meditations. I mean for fucks sake, she literally says intentionally entraining people to respond to the sound of her voice. Who says that?!

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2011/07/tragedy-in-sedona.html

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  24. Mmmmmn....great stuff, everyone! :-)



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  25. Well in all fairness - to break the disrespectful Teal cycle in regards to giving credit: the first line my boyfriends said to me a while ago after listening to my endless complaints about the Teal business - he really freaks out whenever he hears her name now / :.
    the second and third are born in my brain - juicy and fresh, homemade.

    "I mean for fucks sake, she literally says intentionally entraining people to respond to the sound of her voice. Who says that?!"

    Is there not a way of saying? if you hold a fat stinky fish directly into somebodies face, they can't see or smell it or soo.... I suck with quotes hahahahah
    Anyhow: yeah straight in your face to hook all Tealers on the sound of her majesty's voice. :D

    ELENA YOU ARE BACK.
    Did the move go well - I figured you were moving mayyyyybeee??!

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  26. Well, GA, what was born in your brain was awesome. Sums it up beautifully.

    Hi, Elena! Lovely to see you.

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  27. :-))))

    I am not back, I am forward :-D

    I've moved out from my apartment, downsized my belongings to the 2.5 suitcases and for the past couple of weeks have been bumming around, catching up with folks, saying good-byes, being like a tourist and a guest, camping and cottaging on the lake with friends and family on the weekends...All of a sudden I'm in love with Ontario and the people once again ( always happens when I'm about to leave some place ), but then it's such a nice summer weather here now. Flying out in a few days.

    LaVaughn, the money noncast was so funny!

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  28. Killing Buddha

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XamUqgSrRpk

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  29. I like that Flying Lizards version of the money song too. If I were more strongly motivated I would use it as the background song for a video of teal images... her bare butt in the air, all those 'smoldering eyes' shots, the shots with her legs spread wide, the ones where she's 'accidentally' revealing a little thigh and even the hint of a beaver while crossing and uncrossing her legs. She is such a tease.

    And if I was a hacker I would rig it up as the home page of her website. Spiritual Catalyst? I think what she means by that is that she could fuck you right out of this world. On the surface that seems like a mighty fine proposition and I can see why she has so many followers. But when you look deeper it seems like more of a threat than an invitation.

    "I like cooking my family and pets. Use commas. Don't be a psycho."

    Hahahaha... yeah, if she meant the sentence as she wrote it, without any commas, then she would basically be announcing that she did not consider her ask teal videos and the teacasts to be actually helping anyone, so she will no longer be doing them. And since I doubt that is what she is saying my guess would be that she left out the commas. Maybe she needs to be subjecting herself to some 'writing 101' more than she needs to be subjecting others to her 'spirituality 2.0'.

    Personally, I think her personality is much better suited to dress designing than to spiritual guidance. It's more appropriate for a designer to be a little dark and somewhat twisted, and who cares if they know where to put a comma or whether they express themselves with sparkling clarity or tie you up in pretzels with their words. But those same characteristics in a 'spiritual leader'? Well, ummm, I'll have to pass on that, thank you very much.

    And I would almost rather make my way through a leech-filled swamp in the middle of a black, rainy night than to let teal in my head to guide my meditations! I'm sorry if that sounds harsh and judgmental, I'm sure it is, but man, I just don't trust her! This is a woman who has blithely confessed to bringing children to be tortured and burned in 'satanic rituals'!!!! This is a woman who sadistically humiliates people on camera and then posts it online for the world to see. Those are the images her nasal, irritating voice brings to my mind. She appears to be looking for weak minds to dominate and it seems she has found plenty of them.

    I will add that I am aware that Teal has a light side and many positive aspects, just like everybody else, but I still don't trust her- she is shrewd like a rat and tricky like a fox.

    I've been wondering what you were up to Elena. You're heading back to Cypress? I sure would enjoy myself much better there than in Canada and that's a fact. You know how I feel about long cold winters with snow up to your ass and icicles hanging from your nose day in and day out.

    I always get sentimental about a place just as I'm leaving it too... although it usually doesn't take long before I am caught up in the excitement of traveling. Happy trails!!


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  30. Hahahaha:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Gv0H-vPoDc

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  31. "if she meant the sentence as she wrote it, without any commas, then she would basically be announcing that she did not consider her ask teal videos and the teacasts to be actually helping anyone, so she will no longer be doing them."

    Yes, I thought about that, too. But it wouldn't be her first little Freudian slip, now would it. Like when she said her workshops would no longer be "all about" her. LOL Honestly, the things that woman says. Our running joke when we're listening to these things is that line from Fargo:

    "You're sayin'... What're you sayin'?"

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  32. ZZB...FUNY

    Maybe Teal's secret is in synchronization with Weird Al? Is there a sign that foil may be involved? Foil is silver and money COULD be silver and Weird Al has this video

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-0TEJMJOhk

    that is related by artist to the one that ZZB placed on LV's blogmentary and Teal mentioned Illuminati.

    YES, obviously all these signs means Teal is real special and we should buy her mediatations and listen carefully.

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  33. "Hahahaha... yeah, if she meant the sentence as she wrote it, without any commas, then she would basically be announcing that she did not consider her ask teal videos and the teacasts to be actually helping anyone, so she will no longer be doing them."

    In the context of what she was saying about priorities, it looked exactly like that is what is meant, But NOW, I am really happy to see, for her, that she can retract the meaning: by acknowledging that commas were left out accidentally, and by the kindness of LV, and CO, she may rethink her prioritization.

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  34. Lol Tea Cast is here btw :p

    i think maybe teal was trying to say that she wouldn't be able to dedicate as much time to her Ask Teals and Tea cast's ? I don't know, i need a decoder for when teal talks and writes! Lol

    Sarbdeep seems to have ask the Tribers how often would they like the Tea casts and maybe he is reading your reviews LV because he said the tea casts could be of better quality lol

    Oh and Blake wants a reunion of Tealers of everyone in the tribe. Scaryyy watch out people!

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  35. Slow down, Anna. Take a breath. What are they saying that those of us who aren't members of their various Facebook pages can't see? They're taking feedback from the pod people on how many teas to cast? Do I understand that correctly?

    Personally, I think more Sarbdeep, less teal would go a long way to improving these things... except that it always means teal alternately stealing focus with various affectations and staring blankly into space like a heavily medicated mental patient.

    If you find that teal decoder ring, let us know, because wtf. And what exactly, if not the video things, is she taking off her plate? The blog? The grammatically incorrect and incomprehensible self-quote things? The workshops? Obviously not. So what? What exactly is she taking off of her to do list so that she can make "risky" guided meditations?

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  36. Lol @ Take a breath :p maybe i had too much coffee hahaa

    Yes, they're taking feedback it seems from Teal Tribe, Sarbdeep feels the quality of the Tea Cast's and his contribution could be better and asked if they should be done weekly, or every 2-3 weeks. I think it ended up with the tea casts just being done when they have time and feel inspired to do so.

    And yes Tealers seem to like Sarbdeep very much also hahaa, i will let you know if i find that decoder lol i am also thinking what the hell is going on, what did she mean in her blog, why the sudden post by sarbdeep. Maybe she did it to psych you out LV so you would think there would be no more tea cast and you would stop making her look dumb :D who knows hahaa

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  37. zzb: this video was hilarious.

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  38. "Counter point," or counterpoint, means contrasting view. So what "we" are thinking is "counter" to what teal thinks? Oh, and he's the "voice of reason," as per the copy on the Tea Time page. Then why in the hell are people taking workshops with TEAL?!!! Why are they "tealers" and not "Sarbdeepers?" Or better, yet, not a bunch of mindless followers. They're basically acknowledging that teal's ideas are not making sense to, you know, "us" and she needs to be challenged by a rational person.

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  39. Oh, and still rackin' my brain here as to what teal is eliminating from her busy schedule, since it's not teacasts or ask the all-knowing universal perspective dispenser vids, to make room for her potentially disturbing meditations. It's not workshops, obviously. Could it be, oh, I don't know, getting up the fucking billboards? Or her world-changing non-profit that was supposed to remake the medical field, the prison system, and, you know everything else that she rails about? We haven't heard about any of that in a while, have we? Where's the transparent bookkeeping that was supposed to be presented on all of that? Or is it all that, you know, grand vision for the world according to teal -- please donate here -- shit that's gonna go, you know, pffffsssst. Whoops. Yeah. Sorry. No time. Now please buy these videos that might just be a little evil and frightening.

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  40. LV what's your problem
    Look at the beauty of both sentences. They just sound so nice. Please don't think too much ( ;

    "He has been an incredible counter point to Teal's teachings during their podcasts of Tea Time with Teal. He always seems to ask what we are thinking."

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  42. I think Teal learns a lot from you.

    https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=698866340163274&set=a.220153158034597.48688.100001197427552&type=1&theater

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  43. Well... at least she's approximating something closer to an actual definition of soul retrieval. Next thing we know, she'll be calling herself a shaman and claiming to do soul retrieval. So that's a terrifying thought.

    One of the worst healers I ever knew used to do shit like this. She'd just cannibalize every system she encountered. Then without any training or education in any of it, she'd just pronounce herself an expert and start charging money to practice, teach, and certify people in it. She was a monster.

    I get very nervous when people claim knowledge in something and don't explain how they came by that knowledge. And I've never seen any worse offender than teal. She just steals material from everyone and makes grand pronouncements without any kind of citation.

    Well, let's hope at least some of her "tealers" will hear a term as specific and researchable as soul retrieval and use the google. That at least can be traced back to credible source material fairly easily and quickly, unlike some of the rest of his sad hodge podge of psychology, self-help, energy work, channeled material, and god only knows what, that she's cobbled together into her incoherent mess.

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  44. i woke up with heart burn, belly pain and no energy - a very rare state of mine. And now i see that the airplane crashed or was shoot down at the same time. Horrible.

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  45. Noncast: Core Something or Other pt 1

    The story so far: Her majesty has announced that she will either be eliminating teacasts and Ask Teal or eliminating everything but teacasts and Ask Teal -- depending on how you read her misuse of language and grammar -- to focus on "risky" guided meditations and designing dresses. Since announcing this in a blog post, she doesn't appear to have eliminated anything. She's still writing blog posts. She's still producing and selling this ghastly art. (Look: T-shirts!) She's still doing workshops. One assumes she's still working on her book. We have a new Ask Teal and related teacast, which will be discussed in this noncast. Rumor has it they'll be cutting back on their teacast schedule and improving the quality. (Ding, ding, ding, ding.) There's also the matter of her world-changing non-profit. We haven't heard much about that in a while, so perhaps she's eliminating it. And all those imaginary billboards that she's raised disappearing money for. What happened to those? Perhaps she's taken billboards featuring her ghastly art and revolutionizing every major institution in the civilized world off her plate?

    So much of our confusion about this would be alleviated if she would just communicate clearly. Whether she can't or won't is anybody's guess, but she seems to communicate every idea in the most confusing, convoluted manner possible.

    As for the guided meditations, I think we've had a preview in the form of these most recent video offerings on "negative imprints."

    I can see why she calls them "risky." I would probably use words more like "reckless" and "irresponsible."

    The central idea here is that each of us came into this life to feel a certain positive way and that the way to do this was to first experience feeling the opposite, horrible way.

    From "source perspective" the intention is always positive experience, says teal, once again demonstrating that she has no understanding of oneness. It matters not how many times she uses the term oneness. She keeps placing source outside of us. And it's making all sorts of judgments about our choices and experiences. Her "source perspective" sounds more like a small-minded god than it does any concept of unity consciousness.

    So, according to teal, we came into a given incarnation to experience a particular "vibration" that translates into by an emotional experience or "feeling signature." And for some reason, it's very important to find a word that describes this feeling, for which we need a thesaurus. We need to find the exact word and its antonym. This is a "deeply personal" process, she explains, as she exposes the very private Sarbdeep's experience and that of Graciela, who isn't there to speak for herself at all. Once again, if you're in teal's sphere, you're not entitled to a private life, so don't expect one.

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  46. Noncast: Core Something or Other pt 2

    Don't worry. When you see the word you'll know. It will "literally" jump out at you and you'll feel like you've been hit in the chest. That's what happened for Sarbdeep. The correct antonym "literally" jumped off the computer screen at him. Speaking for myself, if cyber words started literally jumping off the screen at me, I expect I'd be scared to death... or concerned that someone had spiked my drink with LSD.

    According to teal, knowing that we've repeatedly experienced a particular unhappy feeling and are longing for a positive feeling allows us to map our entire lives. We're no longer "wandering aimlessly through life" because we know the specific happy feeling we came here to experience. That's right. None of us knew that we wanted to stop being miserable and experience happiness and that's why we just couldn't formulate a goal.

    Sarbdeep, for instance, now knows that he's repeatedly felt total despair. He was a child of an abusive alcoholic, you know. That horrible, hopeless, sinking feeling he's experienced in all his failed relationships, starting with his drunken, knife-wielding father? Now he knows it's called "despair." And it's magical, screen-jumping antonym? Turns out it's "exaltation." And now he has a "map" to help make sense of his aimless life. He needs to go from point A, despair to point B, exaltation.

    You've felt like shit. You want to feel better. Go. Do. Be. You're welcome!

    According to teal, knowing this distinct "signature" of good feeling you're here to experience tells you what kind of career makes sense for you. All our major choices in life are now clear because we know what we came here to feel.

    "Our soul comprehends perception in terms of these feeling signatures, not mental concepts," explains teal at the beginning of her Ask Teal video. Yet many of the "feeling signatures" teal has been directing people to, aren't emotions. Graciela, for instance, is here to feel "connectivity." This is the antonym for "isolation," according to teal. Neither of these are emotions. They're not even "shades of colorations" of emotions. Isolation can cause people to feel various emotions, pleasant or unpleasant, depending on the person. And just so we're clear, abuse isn't an emotional signature. But somehow isolation is.

    Other notional imprints and their antonyms suggested by teal: incability --> surety, poverty --> abundance, and foresaken --> reclamation (that's teal's)

    None of these are emotions. Nor do they suggest any particular career path to me... other than one that pays well for that person who came from poverty and wants to feel abundant. So that's helpful.

    I give Sarbdeep major props for taking such shitty guidance and still managing to locate actual emotions in the dictionary. Despair is an emotion, one of deep, overwhelming sadness. Exaltation is a state of utter bliss frequently associated with divinity.

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  47. Noncast: Core Something or Other pt 3

    It's poetic, in a way. It put us in mind of Dante's Divine Comedy. From Inferno:

    "All hope abandon, ye who enter here."

    To Paradiso:

    "O grace abundant, by which I presumed
    To fix my sight upon the Light Eternal,
    So that the seeing I consumed therein!"

    It sounds lofty. What it suggests in terms of career, I can't imagine, other than possibly a life devoted to a spiritual discipline. This, however, is not what Sarbdeep deduces, now that he has his very special A2B life map.

    "By exaltation it would mean that we trans, essentially transform something. We transform one reality into another reality."

    "Yes. Yes!" says teal.

    "So it's like, for me it's like taking power back, being empowered, essentially, transforming the reality around myself."

    At this point, teal interrupts Sarbdeep to tell him what he's feeling. She thinks he needs a "picture story." Instead of encouraging him describe his own impressions of his interior life, she needs to lay it all out for him. And well, it's just like having a yucky, shapeless ball of clay in front him and having no hands with which to sculpt it. That's despair. Exaltation = having hands.

    What's interesting about all this -- aside from the fact that teal's idea of helping people is hijacking their process and telling them what their feelings mean -- is that exaltation is an emotion of transcendent happiness. The word doesn't mean transformation. Transformation might result in exultant feelings, but it isn't the transformation itself. The only thing potentially transformational in any of this is the transition from sadness to happiness, which is the point of everybody's life, according to teal, and not specific to Sarbdeep's particular emotional "map."

    Exaltation, says teal, is about creating positive change in the world. It's a kind of "alchemy" says Sarbdeep. Wow. All that from the pursuit of personal happiness.

    To further illustrate the wonders of teal's method, she turns her attention to the not appearing in this broadcast Graciela and talks about her emotions, that aren't emotions: isolation and connectivity. It's another opportunity for teal to tell people what they think and feel -- in this case, the listener.

    "So, I'll give you another example. People will like this at home," says teal as she introduces Graciela's personal information.

    For the record, my husband and I are people. We're at home. We didn't like it.

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  48. Noncast: Core Something or Other pt 4

    Graciela was a preemie and spent her earliest life isolated in an incubator. Therefore she's probably here to be a therapist or healer, divines teal. I mean it's so obvious.

    Sarbdeep, still laboring under the misapprehension that exaltation means "create" and "change" deduces that a career path in the political arena -- something he's already done and doesn't have much to say that's good about -- or some other area of social policy makes sense. Or maybe medical research. That's creating and changing things, right? Ta da! He has a map!

    We are here to experience a particular "feeling signature" and to do that we have to experience it's contrasting "feeling signature" first. This is our life purpose in a nutshell, says the woman who recently announced that the "the purpose of life" was a silly, easy to answer question, barely worth discussing.

    Flashback: "And do what, you want me to indulge everyone on the purpose of life."

    That was so last month. Now, today, it's really super crucial that we understand our specific purpose in life so that we're not wandering around aimlessly, having random bits of life falling all over us. Our purpose is to feel a particular feeling which we can only do by first feeling its opposite.

    We need to experience black in order to experience white, she explains in Ask Teal. That she illustrates this with a clip of a black man hugging a white woman is so horrible I don't even know what to say. That it unfolds from there into a segregation montage featuring separate drinking fountains and Martin Luther King is... horrible-er.

    "Let me get this straight. I was born white so I could know what it means to be black?" ~ J

    As with so many things teal, there is absolutely no explanation as to how she came by this process or the theory behind it. It is so because she says it is so. She never explains anything about the background or provenance of this suddenly seminal belief. She doesn't say whom, if anyone, she learned it from. She doesn't say that it's her own idea that she's been developing and working with for however long and to what result. She doesn't say that it just recently came to her in a dream or vision. Nothing. It just is and always was central to her practice in the same way that Oceania has always been at war with Eurasia.

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  49. Noncast: Core Something or Other pt 5

    I did a little googling to see if I could find something that looked like an antecedent to this idea in her own or someone else's work. I found this from a channeled consciousness group call Eloheim.

    "Your core emotion is dictated by your Soul, agreed to by you as you decide to incarnate into this body at this time. It spans all actions, all thoughts, all feelings, all emotions that you experience in the body.

    "When you bring consciousness to your core emotion you are bringing consciousness to such a huge percentage of your being that it will exponentially increase your spiritual progress.

    "The best way to determine your core emotion is by determining two things. These things should be determined not well thought out but what comes first to mind when you ask yourself two questions:

    "What is the happiest memory I have?
    What is the most troubling memory I have?"

    This "core emotion" thing seems to be a major focus of Eloheim's practice. In picking through some of the material on "core emotion" I notice a few things. Much like teal's "core negative imprint" it's typified by emotions that aren't so much emotions as they are beliefs, attitudes, and conditions. Much of the language used to explain this process and its importance is very similar to teal's. I don't see anything about "core emotions" being our life "purpose," but they do supposedly dictate all our major choices: our relationship patterns and our career path.

    Probably the biggest difference I see is that, unlike teal's process, it doesn't have clients swinging between emotional extremes or diving into pain and trauma. The focus is more on reconciling opposites, and finding a common core or baseline, than on "contrast" -- a move towards unity and integration I tend to think more productive. And it recommends minimizing intensely upsetting memories and bringing them into balance with the happy ones.

    "When you think about them simultaneously the question you ask yourself is:

    "How are they the same?

    "When you can see similarities between your happiest memory and your saddest memory you will see the essence of your core emotion. Because it is existing both at your most happy time and your saddest time…. As you identify your core emotion, it will become apparent to you how often it shows up in your life as a driving force behind your behaviors. Each time it flares up and you apply consciousness and you acknowledge, “wow this is going on because this is my Core Emotion, I am here to learn about this” it is your tool to bringing consciousness into your life."

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    I'm not endorsing Eloheim's process. I know only as much as I've linked here. But I have to say that it doesn't look to be quite as "risky" as teal's process. There is always some risk, though, when you direct people to unearth their painful memories. This is particularly dangerous when someone has experienced trauma and/or might be suffering from PTS. And teal would have you dive right into it. She does warn people, though, that it's probably going to be painful -- really painful. A little before the 8:00 minute mark in Ask Teal:

    "I will warn you in advance that this particular feeling might be the most excruciating feeling that you have ever tried to be present with. When I first did this [Yeah. When was that?] it felt a bit like my skin was being burned off of my bones. So I don't want you think this going to be an enjoyable experience."

    Let us start by saying that if there's nothing between skin and bone, you're probably starving to death and might just be anorexic. But more to the point, why is she directing people into painful trauma? And why does the idea make her giggle?

    I think it bears repeating that teal is not a licensed therapist. She has no training or education in psychology. She is simply not qualified to start delving into people's past trauma -- that she equates real trauma and abuse with things like a mother making a toddler get his or her own juice not withstanding. It is inevitable that many of her clients and followers have experienced genuine trauma and such things should be handled respectfully and responsibly. That means things like, not urging them to unearth painful experiences from their past and recommending they seek clinical help where necessary.

    This is particularly important when someone has PTS, because you risk retraumatizing them. My husband has some facility with scholarly databases and found a few things. From Coping with Trauma and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder by Ed Beckham, Ph.D. and Cecilia Beckham L.C.S.W., B.C.D:

    "Persons with PTSD usually need a therapist to help them deal with their problems. There are a variety of reasons for this. One is that the nature of PTSD leads the person to avoid the very issues that they need to address. A second reason is that the person can possibly be retraumatized just by remembering the event(s) which created the PTSD unless they are exposed to the memories in a therapeutic manner. A therapist generally attempts to provide a safe environment as well as generous emotional support to help the person remember. This is usually done in a gradual manner and in a way that provides the client with some control. The therapist is also likely to keep them grounded in the present so as to avoid being flooded with intense emotion. Without this therapist involvement, the person is likely to avoid any remembering at all or to become overwhelmed by it. The therapist helps the client to judge when to pursue a memory and when to step back and calm themselves. The need for a therapist is even greater if the traumatic experience was prolonged, repetitive, and intense. This type of trauma is more likely to cause significant emotional difficulties."

    In Everything Counselors and Supervisors Need to Know About Treating Trauma by Lindsay Bicknell-Hentges and John J. Lynch, the authors explain that unearthing traumatic memory may bring relief in some cases, but it risks retraumatizing the patient and causing their symptoms to worsen rather than improve.

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    Such guidelines are not always followed by clinicians, either, and I think we all know there are bad professional therapists, too. One reason suggested by Kimberly Key, M.A., in Psychology Today that a therapist might retraumatize a patient: to make them dependent, rather than move them towards self-sufficiency.

    That teal fosters dependency has been one of my central concerns from the beginning. The more my husband and I heard in these two videos, the more concerned we became about the potential for psychological damage. She's urging her followers into extreme emotional states, from negative to positive experiences, potentially creating a kind of emotional whiplash.

    Directing people to seesaw back and forth between extreme emotional states suggests a couple of things to us. For one, it sounds a bit like the "traumatic bonding" you seen in abusive relationships, where the punishment, reward cycle actually intensifies the attachment to an abuser. The kindness of an abuser, after the abuse, was once described to me, by a survivor, as a "trickle of honey" that became an addiction simply because it was such a relief.

    It also sounds to us like it could work similarly to the "snapping" process you see in cults, where nutrition, comfort, and "love bombing" are withheld until after an intense, exhausting experience.

    It seems to us that teal is creating a situation wherein in her clients and followers will be thrilled with the resultant positive emotion they "discover" and invest in its life altering power simply because its such a relief after the ordeal of drudging up their most painful memories.

    I have always agreed with teal when she's argued against shaming negative emotions and endorsed people to sit with their feelings rather than avoid the painful ones. Suppressing and denying painful states is not helpful, in my experience. But there's a big difference between allowing painful emotions full, un-judged expression when they arise naturally and intentionally drudging shit up. One is honoring an organic process of presence and truthful expression and the other is, well, drudging shit up. One is self-directed. The other is having an outside party, one you've vested with some authority, to control your emotional process. And control it she does.

    Not only is she actually directing people to intentionally dig up their painful memories, she repeatedly tells people what to think and feel. This is evident in her language choices and instructions, from giving Sarbdeep a "picture story" instead of maybe suggesting he visualize one himself, to telling those of us at home what we'll like. She uses phrases like "I want you to realize," in her extremely prescriptive Ask Teal guidance, as if realization can be imposed.

    She actually tells people that they'll find the same emotion in connection with all their relationship experiences, assuming and directing this conclusion. "Notice that no matter the circumstances or who you were with, the feeling is exactly the same."

    There is not much about this premise I buy. I don't think the purpose of our lives is to feel certain, specific emotions. Emotions are ephemeral, even when they're repeated. While the possibility that we revert to certain baseline emotions tells us something about ourselves and could catalyze a healing process, I just don't buy that it's the entire reason we're here or that the quest for an emotional state works as an organizing principle.

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    There is also very little in either of these videos that demonstrates results. Sarbdeep seems very happy to know that he's here to exalt something or other but it's all still very new for him. So we have yet to see if he will go on to set the political world on fire or achieve some breakthrough in his newly chosen field of medical research. Will Graciela become a therapist? We just don't know.

    The lack of real world examples becomes even more obvious when teal concludes her Ask Teal episode by talking about a movie. In Stranger Than Fiction, Maggie Gyllenhaal discovers that she likes baking more than law school and decides it's a better way for her to impact society. So a movie that used the common trope of a character changing their career path from something traditional and lucrative to something creative and a little risky because it suited them better, somehow demonstrates teal's theory even though it's nowhere described in the movie. At no point does Maggie Gyllenhaal drudge up all her past trauma, determine its feeling signature, and look in a thesaurus for its opposite feeling signature. So teal assigns her one: kinship -- even though, once again, that's not an emotion. But she couldn't talk about a movie that featured core negative imprints and singular feeling signatures as a story arc, because no such movie exists.

    As usual the dynamics between teal and Sarbdeep in the teacast are a study in and of themselves. Sarbdeep has grown a beard again. It's become fascinating simply because he keeps going back and forth on this. His flirtation with an Iron John sort of beardliness has us wondering if it isn't an attempt to assert his manhood. On more than one occasion, teal has poo-pooed his desire to go the gym -- he's just trying to avoid his feelings -- and we haven't heard anything about him practicing martial arts in a while. We're more than a little concerned about whether that aspect of his life -- his warrior nature -- is languishing.

    There's also a cringetastic moment near the end when teal explains that having a man be "ambivalent" about her plays right into her "foresaken" imprint. Was that a jab? I think that might have been a jab.

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    Sarbdeep, though, has become an integral part of teal's branding. They've figured out that people like Sarbdeep and find him accessible in a way that they don't find her. I know I find him far more likable but I'm not teal's market. It seems pretty clear that they're getting similar feedback from "the tribe." Sarbdeep is featured in this workshop because he's is the one who says what we're all thinking, not teal. Ouch!

    At the end of the teacast Sarbdeep begins to announce this upcoming workshop and teal cuts him off mid-sentence. He tries to talk again and doesn't even get out an entire word. All because teal needs to explain why Sarbdeep's role in this workshop is important. Sarbdeep can't explain his own role, I guess. Well why would he? It's not about him. It's still all about teal. See, when teal does in person workshops she can see the person's "vibration" and know whether or not their trackin.' She can adjust her message accordingly. (Translation: She can see the confusion on their faces.) But in an online seminar, she can't see all their little faces... I mean vibrations. She needs Sarbdeep to do his everyman act and clarify for teal what the mere mortals are thinking. So the issue isn't that Sarbdeep is more likable, cogent, reasonable, and comprehensible. It's that teal lives in very rarefied air, well above the rest of us, and it's hard for her to speak mortal sometimes. She needs a translator who isn't an Arcturian Eucharist. That's why Sarbdeep tests better. Yeah, that must be it.

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  54. ...an awkward "cut the cords session" between Teal and Blake which morphed into "cut the cords" to his mother because both of them were freaked out about the idea to cut their cords ( of course, they are still lovers)….it was a boring concept-trhowing-show. On purpose I ignored the comment section of the live stream area because the dripping slim I couldn't take. I still have a soft spot for Sarbdeep and I do think that he is really happy with his new job, wife and life - which is great. I am also wondering why Teal still sticks to the honor payment for the online workshops. I guess less than 50% are paying. 533 people were online. My theory: it is Blake's child and Teal steps into the background (if that is actually possible) and gives him the control over it. It has written the "young hippy Blake approach" all over it. But maybe I am totally wrong and it is a necessary marketing tool to keep the Tealers connected to her and to fight the money hungry image which becomes more and more obvious - she stopped hiding it and switched concepts - now straight in your face. Amazing how the mind of a fan works. Amazing!

    I am looking forward to her clothing line. She has great taste and I just hope that her paintings don't end up to be the fabric print.

    PS: the ugly frog joined the online workshop. Looks like they transform the nonsense podcasts into fee based (still honor payment model) online synch workshops ( ;

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  55. In fact: this sequence starting at 13:13 shuts down my whole desire to uncover the *true* Teal. I had it with the word "true" or "truth". I acutally think that the word "truth" should be replaced with "MY current choice of thought" or "idea". I think that the word and concept/definition behind the word "truth" is the reason for all wars, fights and hate.

    I had the most peaceful life when I wasn't interested in the truth of others. I just let them be and I also exspected of them to let me be. I never wanted to convert anybody, change anybodies thougts. My only desire: to show or share results of my own truth (in form of images etc.) and if you don't like it...great.

    All hell broke loose on the day I encountered a european buddhist who frankly let me know, that I am an idiot for not believing into kharma, rebirth and for running after my bliss/personal desires. She was attacking me so hard and she as sooo sure (just like Tteal) that I actually lost touch with my "old" approach and an internal war was in the making. The painful process of questioning a current choice of thoughts and its insecurity which comes with it. It's as if somebody bombed away the ground under me. She, who read 1000 books on buddhism, could nail every single thought of mine on the wall and rip it into small bits. Slaughter. I am still in shock about it.. actually.

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  56. What do you do when you come to the stage in your life where you realize that you can thing whatever you want, you can make any kind of thought look right or wrong...I mean I do need to think something, or be convinced by something. I need a story. :/ :D :/

    What a strange place to be in.
    I mean... life is all about interaction with thought.

    STRAAAANNNGGGEEEEE.

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  57. I mean
    What the fuck

    Even Angels and demons are a thought
    I am a fucking thought myself
    everything is a thought
    oh no.

    Wtf just happened.
    This is not blissful thoughtless meditation.
    What am I suppose to think.
    choice can actually drive me nuts.
    damn it...and even right now I am thinking a thought by writing this
    a thought is attacking its own nature.

    I AM GOING CRAAAZZZYYY guys
    fuck
    this is a thought as well.
    OMG

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  58. Life is a game of thoughts
    It's like a thought is snorting itself and is getting high.

    Ok
    I wil start a painting now. At least I don't need to think then.
    oh no
    Images are actually thought families.
    is there a reset-thought?
    is there a delete-thought?
    is there anything else than thoughts?

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  59. Okay, GA, you've piqued my curiosity. I've only watched a few minutes of this thing and already I'm horrified. Poor Sarbdeep. Don't think! Feeeeel. No you're using the wrong words to describe your feelings. Don't intellectualize, just talk about your feelings, somehow, without engaging your intellect. (???) But think about the words your using. They're very psychologically revealing.

    That Sarbdeep. He just does everything wrong. He just won't feel and visualize things the right way. And why on earth does he think fear and vulnerability aren't the exact same thing? I don't know. Maybe because he's actually acquainted with the English language and knows how to use a dictionary?

    Jesus Christ, the guy is trying to figure out what's going on in his aura and why he would feel "exposed" (duh) and she's playing at semantics... after telling him not to intellectualize... when she doesn't even know the basic definitions of these words.

    She's a menace.

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  60. So, I don't have 4 hours to listen to this crap. My husband could only take about 5 minutes, announced that Sarbdeep needed to his balls out of his wife's handbag, and left the room.

    What do you mean Sarbdeep called Madonna the lizard queen?

    And, wait, so she tried to cut the cord with Blake but cut his cord to his mother instead? For fucking real?

    So much weirdness. So little time.

    Me, I love the frog. The frog is the real star as far as I'm concerned.

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  61. Brilliant once Again LV :D

    I was wondering if or who'm she stole her "find the Negative Imprint" idea from, I am glad you found the Eloheims.

    The other day i also sorta had a similar thought about Teal's dependent teachings, i thought, wait does she want to submit people to some kind of torture because of what happened to her, like as pay back or to have a strange pain bond or just to have them keep coming back to her? Or a bit of mix of all these?

    LOL GA, i use to have those same thoughts sometimes about "thoughts" :p

    Yes i also watched some of yesterdays workshop too, i agree with GA how does she come up with this shit so fast?! Oh and then she says let me tune into you (the person asking the question) and suddenly sees their problem lol i also found it funny how Sarbdeep didnt want to do the cutting sex cords exercise and blake took his place but ended up cutting his moms cords ? Thought it was suppose to be the sex chords, wasnt?

    LV yes according to Teal, blake has some severe mother issues, a very manipulative mother but he is now working through it :p

    I laughed when Teal did some brain vs heart exercise and then Teal asked sarbdeep to think about what his mind was saying about when they met and basically making such a life change to be With Teal and he said his mind was saying at the time "it would be best to know each other first or give it more time" something around those lines but as we know he didnt listen to his wise mind, i wonder if he is regretting it now LOL








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  62. Oh my God. We experience bad parenting just like rape? Seriously?! Please, other than say, a parent raping their child, what possibly could that parent do that would be processed just like rape? What the fuck is she talking about? Is this about the goddam juice again? My mother made me get my own juice when I was three. It was just like being raped!

    Jesus H Christ.

    ******

    I love this line: "There are some moms that aren't this way."

    Some moms aren't toxic harpies. Good to know. Sounds like there aren't many, but there are some.

    ******

    She push polls. "Would say that ... blah, blah, blah...?"

    "Yes, definitely."

    She's, once again, telling, in this case, Blake what he thinks and having him sign off on it. Helpful.

    I mean where would all these people be without teal to tell them what they think and feel?

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  63. no, the wallpaper is the star.
    Well, he was saying that you can ask stuff when you are taking in the ayahuasca…and he asked what kind of creature this woman is, he was working for (so I assume it is Madonna). He said something like the fucking queen of all lizards or so.


    In regards to happy cord cutting: she suggested that both (B&T) do a live session by cutting the cords which both connect (which btw is the reason, that he can't find a woman right now…according to Teal…kind of true….this man loves her). Then both got horrified just by the thought of it and chose instead the mother & Blake cord. Well on your own risk dear Tealers….don't forget to follow the recommendation to pull out the cord net from the others person chakra ( ; ouch.

    Cord cuts are important! She mentioned a lot of important stuff but also a tone of crap in regards to it. Her desire to present personal stuff issues in front of the audience is most of the time…kind of dangerous in my opinion. Blake, the lover, she can use for everything. Sarbdeep reminds me more often of Bambi with marshall art skills….and I really don't know why.

    But you know LV i am surprised that you even tried to watch it. Forget about it, you might have a heart attack. you might survive watching the other interview i was posting ( ;

    --------

    I have a question:
    What are thoughts made of. What is producing them and what was before the thought? What happens to a thought that doesn't get attention? Can a thought be perceived without thinking? Is life thinking? If I am a thought myself, What in fact is a thought?

    After my mini breakdown of my brain synapsis system…I am on something here.

    I am so thoughtful.

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  64. Oh. For. Fuck's. Sake.

    So, we need to show up for ourselves -- not "abandon" ourselves -- not to become whole within ourselves but so we'll law of a attract romantic partners who won't abandon us. Fuck autonomy and being whole within yourself. It's only worthwhile if it gets you a new boyfriend.

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  65. Anna ha
    I totally forgot about the thing how they met. It was actually so funny because Teal made Sarbdeep describe how they met and his way of describing it was so random and boring....that he really didn't fullfill Teal's exspectations of Magic. Next time SHE should tell the story for all magic addicted Tealers :D

    ok Anna - so if you had the same kind of thougths about thoughts...what did you find out?

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  66. by the way: the "let me tune into you" works like horoscopes.... the question in itself gives her the main info...and then she just needs to talk about the stuff which happens to ALL of us, earlier or later... and bam ---- " oh Teal how did you know that i felt alone as a child blab lab".... no, I am not so impressed by this technique she learnt...I am interested in how fast she can find answers for all kind of questions...from vegetable gardening to changing the mitochondrial DNA etc. I think one part is...to say the same thing over and over again, just using different words and symbols. So she has a kind of basic set of answers (kind of like the LEGO system :D), she probably also did some speed reading herself in general,scifi books and has a good general knowledge. In case there is a hole...she just makes up stuff and her projected confidence stops most of them to do a research on it. BTW: it also helps to read these kind of blogs about the newest discoveries...spiritscience does help as well :D (this is where she actually started and got a good follower group from there. As far as I know, they guy from spirit science did also her video intro.

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  67. "What are thoughts made of. What is producing them and what was before the thought? What happens to a thought that doesn't get attention? Can a thought be perceived without thinking? Is life thinking? If I am a thought myself, What in fact is a thought?"

    Good luck with that one, GA, because no one knows. There are many different beliefs but no one knows. It's called the "hard problem" of consciousness. Is consciousness created by the brain? Or is consciousness beyond the brain? Is the brain more of a receiving and processing center?

    I'm of the latter camp. I'm a believer in non-local consciousness. I have many reasons for believing that and it accords with my experience but it's still a belief, an orientation, not a proven fact.

    As an artist, I'm sure you've had the experience of the "felt thought." A kind of pre-thought which has no words or clear mental picture yet. It's like an itch you can't scratch. I'm acutely aware of this phenomenon because I write. I often sit down to write something I'm thinking about and suddenly find that there are no words, no form, no linear process, and yet the thought is there. I have to wrestle it into consciousness and find a way to put words to the "feeling" is the only way to define it. I've had this conversation with other people. In my experience, it's more commonly understood among people who do some kind of art because we're in the business of putting our own ideas into form.

    On another note, I still have this crazy workshop on in the background and I'm sort of tuning in and out and I've reached the interlude with just the frog. I love it! Just the frog and some background music. Awesome. I wish Blake and Sarbdeep would shut up. Oh. Here comes Sarbdeep. Can't wait to see where this goes...

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  68. Andreas Moritz (died few years ago) is also a jewel box for her. She learnt a lot of stuff from his books and philosophies, including "The amazing Liver flush" - which is brilliant! AND if you really study quantum physics, watch movies like "what the bleep do we know" (full with interesting people to study)...this personal interest will enable you to built a world view which includes new age, science stuff and old religions. As far as I am concerned, Teal is selling a wonderful story which makes many people happy. As ZZB mentioned before, she is indeed very talented and her personal nature seems to match enterpreneur trades. She will come far. Let's see how many people love to be entertained by her. It was really entertainment which made me enjoy my first few month of following her. AND she said, that kharma doesn't exist. It was a great relief for me. (shaking my head).... I told myself a nice nice story of relief and fantastic magic for a while.

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  69. Oh, okay, I see where you guys were talking about this upthread.

    Wow, this is so much worse than I could have imagined. Can we just have the frog back?

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  70. LV: " I have to wrestle it into consciousness and find a way to put words to the "feeling" is the only way to define it."

    I want to hug you right now. EXACTLY. Mhhhh so the "thought thing" is the great dilemma I guess. I slowly come to the conclusion that anything we ever perceived as I, life, others, is in fact a thought(s). So that would mean that dynamic thoughts is Life. You are probably right that it can never be know what was before the thought because the "knower" is a thought in itself, a location point in the grid. I agree that art activity does very interesting thing with our thought relationship. I always feel exitment for a new arrival. The world dies in this moment because there is no focus or concentration on the world around me. It is total defocusing, concept destruction and pure openness, no judgement ...but the urge of recognizing something (a colour, or a word or a shape). My love for the enfolding stuff in front of me..is the guide. It feels more like an intelligence making all decisions - not me. In fact, I don't exist in this moment - which is AWESOME. I would call the painting process a defocused focus. Makes totally sense right?!



    Wow LV you are on it with the frog show, aren't you.

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  71. So that was hideous. Blake deliberately makes Sarbdeep uncomfortable with a sexual question, ripping the word "orgasm" out of the question's context to make it even more uncomfortable. Then admits that he's just messing with Sarbdeep.

    Well, that was more about the dynamics of this creepy love triangle than I ever wanted to know.

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  72. Umm wait let me tune into you GA :p ahh i see the underlying basis of your dilemma with thoughts. Your mother didnt let you think so youre going to have to go back in time in your mind ok?? Lol :p

    Actually i got no where with my what are thoughts dilemma hahaaa i found it detrimental for my mind and myself, i found no answer. Sorry to disappoint :(

    And yes, whats up with karma thing?? Teal says there's no karma and Sarbdeep seems to agree. Is there karma? I think there is.

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  73. I do love the frog.

    I need to take a break from this because I have a life and family. I'll check back later and take a better look at these great comments. Multitasking: always a challenge.

    Dear God that video is a train wreck... and I can't stop rubbernecking.

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  74. LV: "Well, that was more about the dynamics of this creepy love triangle than I ever wanted to know." exactly. I was surprised that he did is SOOOO LOUUUD. And never saw Sarbdeep so annoyed. Silly games.

    LV happy family time. I just have thoughts as children. They keep me multitasking as well.

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  75. Wow, GA. What a googler you are! Here's the thing, though. I like teal's better. The colors are more muted and it looks like more of a matte finish. Those are so shiny! Maybe hers is just weather-beaten. Or perhaps she's just talked the luster right off it. Either way, I like the more muted appearance.

    Here's the thing about the frog. For me, it's really evocative of the Wind in the Willows, which was a childhood favorite. My husband and I also have lots of inside jokes about Frog and Toad are Friends. Like, what's happened to Toad? Did Toad flee in terror? Did she talk Toad into killing himself? Or, during one of the more hallucinatory episodes of Tea Time, "Oh, I see. She licked poor Toad to death."

    But, in a nutshell, the frog appeals to my inner child. He looks like he stepped out of a storybook.

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  76. easy solutions:
    1) get the frog and sandblast it :D

    or 2) get the frog and leave it outside in the garden for a full year

    or 3) promise Teal that you will never write an article about her again and she may send her frog to you

    ( ;

    Anyway: I made you smile for 2 seconds.
    even it was a damn glossy frog hahahha

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  77. I just fed google the obvious:
    frog-statue-butler

    Google is the catalyst for frogs & Co :D



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  78. Lmao! At "3) promise Teal that you will never write an article about her again and she may send her frog to you "

    I say put it in the sun for a week or put a matte finish yourself on it if you reaaallyy want the frog :) and then you must do a parody of the tea cast with your husband lol :D

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  79. after getting enlightened by google about the meaning of LMAO, I must confess that NOT-videotaped non-podcast with LV & husband would be awesome. Seeing the video of T& S running and having your voice over hahahah, noises of shock and disbelief and so on. I can see it in my mind. and put a soft frog pond noise in the background. Glossy will not be a problem in this case. :d

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  80. GA, Voice over might even be better! no need to tape and all that just take the audio out and there ya go ready to get a voice over :D

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  81. Hahaaaa that's pretty funny GA and yes something like that, LV?? :D you can do them as time and inspiration allows it :p

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  82. Btw no one thought the meditation at the beggining of the workshop was funny? The way they were moving their bodies seemed kind of sexual to me hahahaa so i found myself thinking omg gross!! Lol

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  83. I didn't watch beginning - had always short little visits.

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  84. Lol! I just saw that instagram pic, i am sure if Teal could do that she would and we would see it in a blog or something hahaaa so yes thank god she doesnt know yoga!

    Yes i know GA us and our dirty minds tisk tisk ;) but maybe just maybe everything about Teal IS sexual :p

    Oh i was glad to know what fruits are the happiest when we eat them and you GA? I guess teal talks to fruits and veggies too huh lol

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  85. "Btw no one thought the meditation at the beggining of the workshop was funny?"

    I skipped over it, Anna. I thought it was really boring.

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  86. "In case there is a hole...she just makes up stuff and her projected confidence stops most of them to do a research on it."

    Precisely. Except everything she says has more holes than Swiss cheese. She's a bullshit artist, plain and simple. And she's not even a good one. As I think I've demonstrated many times over, she's not congruent. She contradicts herself constantly. Everything is qualified with weasel words. She's cobbled together quite a pastiche of impressive sounding words and phrases that can be traced to other new age sources. But she doesn't assemble them well. She just says it all with such confidence and authority that a lot of people take it at face value.

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  87. But LV, i agree with all of it but sometimes I really think that she has many personalities and few of them REALLY believe their own creation. .... you know, in the same way as she presented "her" (aka sombody else's) technique with writing your fantasy stuff down and burn it. Only difference- she never burnt it. She created this in her mind and now believes it.

    I knew a choleric man, who was trying to be a guru. He had this certainty and confidence about him. He could convince himself in 5 seconds that this apple is violet and then he would absolutly believe it and give you a teaching on it. He used this method as well to hide the shit he did in the past, in front of his current self.

    I have to say it was impressive to observe. One day he decided that he was a reincarnation of a specific buddhist Lhama. HE REALLY BELIEVED IT after making the decision.

    Now as hilarious and concerning it may sound...I acutally just noticed that his relates very much to my previous post about thoughts. I mean we all decide one day to believe something. We made it up ourselves or we convinced us that sb else words are correct. It is the same game

    SAME GAME

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  88. So I'm listening to this thing about how teal and Sarbdeep got together and I notice Sarbdeep is doing everything wrong again. She even gives him the exact intro to set it up properly and he still whiffs it. She has to keep interrupting... I mean helping him tell the story.

    I'm not a Byron Katie fan, but is the point of her process to totally bullshit yourself and make up facts? Because this thing teal says about how people who rush into marriage stay together longer, leave say, it doesn't accord with anything I've heard or read on the subject. It's kind of, you know, exactly the opposite. Couples who take their time getting to know each other fare better. Like there was this fourteen year study by Dr. Ted Huston that found, among other things that:

    “'The courtships and marriages that are successful are the ‘best friend’ ones, the ones that are slow and steady and unfold over time,' said Huston. 'Positive feelings like trust and respect emerge, and the whole thing mirrors the evolution of any other kind of good relationship in life.'”

    So, I don't know. If the goal of The Work is to make up facts to support some Bizarro World version of inverted reality, okay. If not, FAIL.

    It is true that couples who live together for a long time first don't fare as well, statistically. But that's couples who've been effectively married for years by another name and sometimes the relationships, overall, are quite long. But, again, maybe she's just making up facts for her pretend legal argument.

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  89. "So for anyone at home who's got cords, this is the process I want you to follow." ~ teal

    Not, this is something you can try. Not, I've found this method effective but you should follow your own intuition as to whether or not it's appropriate for you.

    It's DO this and do it this way.

    It think she's missed her calling. She should be a dominatrix, not a spiritual teacher. I think from now on I'm going to call her Mistress Teal.

    *******

    And the other shoe drops. It's "iffy" and most people tell you not to remove the cords from people on the other end but she does. Who cares whether or not they're "in choice" to have those cords removed. No one should have cords. She knows best for you person who has not asked for her help and doesn't even know what's happening. Why should you ask people what they do and don't want? Fuck consent. She knows what's best for you. No one wants cords, so...

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  90. "No one wants cords, so...."..except Teal and Blake ( ;

    A little warning would have been nice as the person who is doing it and the person on the other end *can* feel dizzy, disorientation etc.. It is in my opinion a very important practice but as any kind of "practice" there are things you need to know before you do them. When I was cutting and sealing the ends of the cords between I an my boyfriend, he went into a totally dark place for 3 days. I didn't connect it. He was saying that he feels like somebody spun him and he doesn't know anymore who or what he is and where he is. I was absolutly fine and felt the opposite.

    Anyway - ask Teal, she knows best.

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  91. "A little warning would have been nice as the person who is doing it and the person on the other end *can* feel dizzy, disorientation etc.."

    Yes, they absolutely can experience discomfort. But beyond that, you don't go around depriving people of their choices, their lessons, their own right to experience life as they see fit, so long as they're not harming anybody else. Once you've helped your client or whomever has actually invited your help, whatever harm is being done by those cords to them should be ended. You're done. Leave people alone who never asked for your "help." This is so basic. It's one of the first things you learn when you start doing any kind of energy medicine. And worse, she knows it, but she doesn't give a shit. She has no respect for anyone else's choices or sovereignty. She just knows what's best for everybody. Their choices, opinions, desire for privacy, just don't matter. So just shut up and let her fix you.

    "But LV, i agree with all of it but sometimes I really think that she has many personalities and few of them REALLY believe their own creation."

    She may. But what's going on between her ears is none of my business. She's not my client. It's not my place to speak to what may or may not be her motivations. I'm just looking at her behavior, her statements, the readily available public record. That's all I consider to be my business, as a member of the public.

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  92. So this is just stellar. There are four types of intuitives, according to teal: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual.

    I go by a different breakdown: empathic/clairsentient, clairaudient, and clairvoyant. Which is to say I learned that our nonordinary perception is an extension of our ordinary perception: touch, hearing, and sight.

    I'm not saying that my system is right and hers is wrong, just that it's different. But my tolerance for what she's saying ends right there. First of all she's not saying there are different types of psychic perception. She's saying there are different types of intuitives. (I agree with her that we're all innately psychic and are trained away from in our culture, obviously.) But she's creating a kind of class system of psychic perception. There are the physical intuitives like Sarbdeep who feel things in their body. Then there are the emotional intuitives who feel through the emotions. The mental intuitives who see things. And then there are the spiritual intuitives who become spiritual teachers. This is "perhaps the highest spiritual ability but also the most frustrating." These people just "know." Poor teal, but power has a price. I mean if you have the "highest" ability it's going to be at least a little burdensome.

    So, I beg to differ. We don't fall into classes of spiritual perception. We tend towards different types of perception but there's overlap for all of us to at least some degree. I know, for myself, I work from all three forms of perception and shift between them. I was told years ago by some NLP person that I'm really strange because I do the same thing in terms of my ordinary perception. He did that test on me where he asked me a question and then watched my eyes: people who look up are visual, people who look to the side are auditory, and people who look down are kinesthetic, apparently. He asked me several questions -- I had no idea what he was doing -- and on every question I cycled between all three eye movements. Completely freaked the guy out for some reason. Anyway, I know that I do basically the same thing when I read. I get empathic information, which is both physical and emotion, btw. I hear things, and I see impressions.

    But as even an NLP person would tell you, being primarily auditory doesn't mean your blind. We all have all these types of perception, but the tendencies and degrees vary.

    And we can all perceive "spiritually," btw. She's not the queen of the bloody fairies.

    I'm still talking about this wretched workshop, obviously, as I'm sitting here waiting for the annual termite inspection -- guy's an hour late -- and have no tv because we're having a thunderstorm. Sigh. Whatever.

    And I disagree that our past life experiences are irrelevant but I've covered that already.

    She's ridiculous.

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  93. Allergies: ALWAYS a result of some kind of trauma. Always. Yup. If you have allergies you were traumatized and don't want to feel your feelings.

    Jesus H. Christ!

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  94. I love this. She's telling a woman who feels overburdened by caring for her child to get someone else to take care of the child. And if she does that enough times, she may feel well enough to start nurturing her own child again.

    But what about all those "transient caregivers" and absent parenting? What about the attachment disorder this child will inevitably develop? Wouldn't this woman be setting up her child to be mass murderer? I mean teal totally lambasted the mother of "the virgin killer" -- who left a nursing career to raise her children -- for having additional help from her own mother and some nannies. Now she's saying, can't pick up your own child? Hire someone. It'll all work out.

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  95. Okay, wait. This gets crazier as it goes along. You're supposed to "invent" a "third party person" to take care of your child. It sounds like she's saying imagine one or let your child invent a fantasy caretaker.

    And then what?

    In physical reality, inquiring minds want to know, who is taking care of that child?

    "You're sayin'... What're you sayin'?"

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  96. Sarbdeep says it's Superman.

    WTF?

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  97. Sarbdeep: I don't have a social phobia.

    teal: Yes you do.

    Sarbdeep: I don't have a social phobia. It's a choice.

    teal: Yes you do. I watch you.

    How dare Sarbdeep determine these things for himself!

    Back in your box, Sarbdeep. Get back in your fucking box, where I put you.

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  98. So a lack of social anxiety means we'll be as comfortable as babies pooping and pissing in front of other people? And wanting to poop and pee in a bathroom with the door closed means we're horribly inhibited and care too much about what other people think?

    Just following this explanation through to its natural conclusion...

    Do I understand that right?

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  99. So social anxiety is caused by unreliable parents who may be there or may not when you need them... So um... what if your parent is an imaginary superhero? What does that cause?

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  100. So has teal ever done ayahuasca? I thought that awful round painting was called Soul Retrieval? Why would teal do a painting of an ayahuasca journey if she's never done ayahuasca is my question?

    Anyway, I don't care for her art. It's way too busy and clashy. It makes me feel very agitated. It's taking away from the frog for me. I don't like it. Can't I just have the frog?

    Now this is some beautiful ayahuasca inspired art. http://www.grahamhancock.com/gallery/supernatural/

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  101. Okay, they're back and trying to alleviate some of the ayahuasca confusion. No, ayahuasca is not usually a part of soul retrieval. There are many tools that can be used to journey, only some of which are hallucinogenic plants. A drum or a rattle is quite effective.

    Sarbdeep is now saying that DMT is produced in the pineal gland. We don't actually know that although it has been posited that this is so -- unless there is some newer research that I'm unfamiliar with it remains unproven. Rick Strassman who has done the most comprehensive research into the psychological effects of DMT says that the pineal gland is the likeliest source of the naturally occurring DMT in the brain. I read DMT, too, as did Sarbdeep, and I watched the documentary, as did teal, apparently. It is not proven. I have my own reasons for believing that this is the case but it has not been proven.

    The reason ayahuasca is combined with other plant material is that it contains an inhibitor for the enzyme that shuts down DMT in the digestive system. It inhibits the natural inhibitor, in other words. Sarbdeep is incorrect about the plant being combined in the sense that different areas rely on different plants. Ayahuasca is used in many regions, probably more than we know of and many plants are rich in DMT. You can actually find DMT in just about everything, like the grass in your lawn. It's everywhere. We're not tripping all the time because the body deactivates it.

    It doesn't thrill me that teal is cribbing her information from my blog on soul retrieval but if she's going to, I'd rather she give good information than bad. Soul Retrieval as a codified process comes from Michael Harner's core shamanism. It's based on processes he observed in shamanic cultures around the world, but it's an homogenized version. Shamanism, btw, is also really a construct. The word comes from the Siberian Tungu word "saman" that means "one who knows." In Western anthropology that became sort of a catch all word for a wide range of indigenous medicine practices.

    And no, ayahuasca is not activating the "vibration" of DMT in our own body. It's exogenous DMT that is being introduced from the plant material.

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  102. Ayahuasca is not "a crutch." How insulting to all the ayahuascaros, vegelistas, and shamans using a range of methods to access non-ordinary states all over the globe.

    Why does this woman constantly have to make everything a hierarchy and talk about the "highest shamans" who don't need all those things. I guess that's her? Is she a "high shaman" now too? We already know that she has the "highest" form of psychic perception, the poor frustrated darling.

    It is true that some people who've been doing this for a long time find they no longer need tools, like a drum, or anything else. I don't. Hell, it's harder for me to stay in this reality than to get into that one. But why is she making this about value judgments?

    A crutch. Jesus Christ.

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  103. Ayahuasca is not addictive. Both ayahuasca and iboga -- particularly iboga -- can help people heal from addiction. There are actually clinical trials going on with ibogaine because it's proved so effective in treating addictions.

    She just has no idea what she's talking about.

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  104. Should not be done recreationally. On that we agree. Not that drinking something incredibly foul vomiting and diarrhea are terribly enticing as a "recreational" experience. Ayahuasca is an ordeal, not a party.

    Some hallucinogens are more likely to be be abused and they shouldn't be. I agree. Work with someone qualified. Have proper guidance. Approach any shamanic journey -- any shamanic journey -- with the proper respect and reverence its importance.

    Ayahuasca tourism: bad idea. Work with a good shaman. I agree.

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  105. Oh my God! Some people experience teal as "authority" and some as the "divine mother." She's good with that.

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  106. Sarbdeep grew up around that "Indian, Sikh, Hindu" kind of thing, says teal. That's where this karma idea started. Oh, those funny, brown people and their ideas.

    Um, no. Karma is a Sanskrit word for a concept that appears in many cultures. Actually, most religious systems have some version of reincarnation belief, even Judaism.

    I do agree that what she calls "consequence karma" is a gross oversimplification and used to try to scare people into good behavior, much like the Christian Church threatens hell. These are really dumbed down ideas. It's not that simple.

    Do we carry things forward from our past lives to learn from? There's a huge body of evidence that says we do. We carry all kinds of memories but most of us are acculturated out of it.

    I read this, recently, about a Druze boy who solved his own murder. Even by Druze standards, and they have very complex beliefs about reincarnation, this is kind of impressive. http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/681034-3-year-old-remembers-past-life-identifies-murderer-and-location-of-body/

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  107. Sarbdeep did "terrible" things in his past life. How does she know this? She's teal. Just "Ask Teal." She knows.

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  108. Sigh. Just when I thought I might be finding some common ground with teal on this whole karma thing. Yes, when it's used to propound the "just world" fallacy, that's a losing proposition. But then please tell me how her LOA idea is better. The woman who grew up as an untouchable in India doesn't understand how her childhood caused her to law of attract her untouchable status. (???) Um... SHE WAS BORN AN UNTOUCHABLE. That came a little before her childhood.

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  109. This is all important stuff you are writing here. I hope google picks up content from the blogger comment section as well?! I mean...you probably wrote more than 30 insightful articles here, hidden in the overwhelming comment section. I still stick to my original thought, that each of them should have its own gate-web-link.

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  110. btw: not sure but I think that this was not the asker's born child but her inner child. And because Teal's process leads to dead ends, she suggests to find a professional to help taking care of the inner child issues and magically covers it up with "having a break of taking care of the child".
    Well this is how I understood it.
    But it really doesn't matter cause the relationship between the asker and the divine mother Teal is already defined. So her answers will be the ultimate truth for the asker. That's how thoughts and focus work in an individual who chose a certain story.

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  111. The comments are read by search engines and it's pretty well indexed. In terms of permalinks, yes and no. As near as I can tell, it depends on your browser. I know on my browser, the direct links don't go to the comments, they revert to the first page of the blog entry. Pain in the ass and the reason I've added direct page links for every page of comments to the blog posts.

    But I can tell from looking at my stats that some people can go directly to the comments from the comment permalinks. I haven't made a major study of it. I just scan the stats on occasion, but you know, i have a life. I always just turn these things over. The people who are in a space to find that information will find it, from me or somebody else.

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  112. You mean the thing with the imaginary parent? Dear God I hope you're right. Like so much of this, a little hard to follow. Now where was that? I should listen to it again.... if I can stand to.

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  113. Is there hope for children of narcissistic parents?

    No. Get out.

    Um...

    That frog in the living room needs to replaced with a great big elephant.

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  114. My inner child wants someone to get her some juice. What do I do? Or some Valium flavored punch...

    http://jondrowe.tumblr.com/post/27570015753/smart-mothers-in-the-know-serve-new-valium

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  115. Oh, so I did catch the thing about a former employer, possibly Madonna, being the queen of the lizards. Still trying to figure that out. Here's why. For one, I've known a few people through the years who've worked with Madonna on various projects. Personally, I think she's ghastly. I think she's shallow, superficial, and rude.

    I knew a hotel caterer, some years back, who watched her pick a fork up off a freshly set table, comb her hair with it, and put it back into the place setting. Needless to say, he replaced the fork. Ewww...

    But here's why I find it interesting. Ayahuasca is a serpentine energy. When you're working with indigenous systems, reptiles are not a negative. Quite the contrary. For instance:

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2012/06/solstice-and-serpent.html

    Western constructs around serpent energy, and that includes a lot of new age stuff, are just schizophrenic:

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2010/12/william-henry-seraphim-kundalini-and.html

    So, here's the question I'm left with. When Sarbdeep says Madonna, or whomever he's referring to there, is a lizard queen, is that a good thing or a bad thing?

    "I am the Lizard King. I can do anything." ~ Jim Morrison, Celebration of the Lizard

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  116. HE didn't mean it in a positive way. Considering that his interpretation of the imagery was based on the westerns concept...than this is his (sub)conciousness showing an information - same way as our brain chooses different images in dreams to represent *something* which only we know. To me a frog feels different than to you. So I do think he reverse to Madonna and not in a good way. Who knows what he witnessed by being the housekeeper of Madonna for a while.

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  117. I agree with you, GA. I don't think it was a positive depiction. I'm just struck by the irony.

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  118. Uh oh. Turns out JZ Knight is something of a bigot and given to her own brand of racist rants. Kinda horrible.

    “'Fuck God’s chosen people! I think they have earned enough cash to have paid their way out of the goddamned gas chambers by now,' Knight told her students in the released video. Knight explained 'I’m telling you this, every goddamn Mexican family is a Catholic—they’re breeding like fucking rabbits,' before adding that 'all gay men were once Catholic women.'”

    http://www.rawstory.com/rs/2014/07/21/new-age-leader-sues-ex-students-over-leaked-video-of-her-drunken-racist-anti-gay-rant/

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  119. I agree with GA that things you write about here are very important, i myself have learned a lot from your blog, comments, tea cast reviews. I found other articles written by you that are so interesting as well. And i am glad you took the time to watch this workshop and write about maybe this could be a new blog on its own? As well as the tea casts? So when people type in Tealswan podcasts your review will come up as well?? Hahaaa :D or teal swan workshop and your review comes up also LOL

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  120. Hi Anna. I've chosen to keep the noncasts in the comments for a couple of reasons. One is that it's satirical. It's meant to mirror the way the "podcasts" are not podcasts and are actually buried on her website and posted to private on YouTube. The second is, on a more serious note, to respect their desire to keep them more private. I suspect it's a concession to Sarbdeep's discomfort with having his private life dragged out into the public sphere. Note that the first couple of these were all about Sarbdeep's "problem" of desiring privacy. I know it's all so meta.

    The thing with the workshop I wouldn't make a freestanding post because I prefer not to write blog posts about material that is behind a pay wall and/or only available for a brief period. I like the blog to be an information archive. I'm annoyed enough at how many holes have developed because of YouTubes that have been ripped down.

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  121. Well, now I have a problem. I didn't have enough time for my inner child today so I said, "Look, here's Wonder Woman. She's going to take you to the park in her invisible airplane. Doesn't that sound like fun?!"

    And, you know, for about a half a minute, I really thought I was gonna get away with it. But then, she was like, "Uh, Wonder Woman is imaginary. How dumb do you think I am?"

    And now my inner child has stopped speaking to me. She's locked herself in her room and she won't come out.

    Thoughts? Anyone?

    I should have known better than to try to bullshit this kid. She's so much smarter than I am.

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  122. OK LV you lost it now hahahaha
    Too much Teal in one go

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  123. You're right, GA. So that's me and my inner child! We're both all fucked up now. You had to hip me to that broadcast. If only I knew where to turn for help. I know. Maybe I should ask that nice teal lady. She knows everything! Wait! What am I saying? Oh, nooos. I'm all turned around.

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  124. I want to back up to something you said, GA. Please don't think I'm picking on you, but I think this is a really important point so I want to address it.

    "HE didn't mean it in a positive way. Considering that his interpretation of the imagery was based on the westerns concept...than this is his (sub)conciousness showing an information - same way as our brain chooses different images in dreams to represent *something* which only we know."

    The images we encounter in shamanic journeys and at least some of our dreams and visions are not produced in our own subconscious, nor do they cater to our understanding of them. When we begin interacting with the spirit world and accessing these archetypes, they're much bigger than our paltry understanding. That's why they're called archetypes. I've learned this the hard way more times than I can count. There are things I've seen I've seen in journeys, dreams, and meditations, from years ago, that I still haven't figured out. Many have been incredible learning experiences, dragging me through myths and histories I'd never even heard of. I've encountered power animals that terrified me only to learn later that they're very powerful, positive symbols that I was only scared of because I had a limited, modern world knowledge of them. I didn't understand what I was seeing at all.

    I remember Christina Pratt telling a story once about a student in one of her classes who encountered a snake in the spine of someone she was working on. Horrified and convinced it was a very a bad thing she extracted it and threw it away. And Christina was like, "Oh no! We have to put that back!" Pretty crucial piece of that woman's energy, actually.

    These aren't things we conjure up out of our imagination. I'm very convinced of that. I believe the spirit world is very real and I believe these archetypes are part of a great system of collective knowledge. And when we first start interacting with it, particularly as "civilized" Westerners, it's like entering a foreign land and having a very limited understanding of the language. We have to learn it by immersion in it and by respecting the spirit world the same way we should respect people in other countries and cultures. They know the terrain much better than we do.

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  125. When I was a child I used to spend summers at my grandparents farm. My favorite childhood memories are of that farm. I loved every nook and cranny of the place, but I had 3 favorite spots... up in the loftiest branches of the old apple tree in the garden; a sort of 'lean-to' type 'fort' that I had built up against the wall of the house where I would sit all snug and dry and watch the rain come down; and my swing that hung from the cherry tree at the gate, right across from the long hedge of lilac bushes. The cherry tree used to regale me with love stories about the sky, but at the time I just thought I was having my own profound thoughts about love and life. It never struck me as odd that they would all revolve around the sky.

    Whenever I see or hear the term 'inner child', those memories come into my mind, and a 'caregiver', no matter how kind and loving, visible or invisible, would just be an intrusion into the reverie that 'inner child' prefers to enjoy.

    I couldn't watch that video you all are talking about so I'm pretty sure my comment is totally non-sequitur, but man, I just can't sit through ANY of her videos without cringing worse and worse the longer the thing drags on, and they do draaaaaaag on and on.

    I lightly skimmed through the first part, long enough to hear her say "write that down Blakey". It was either right there or when she went off to go pee and Sarbdeep started acting like "while the cat's away the mouse will play" that I couldn't take any more and shut it off. I can't think how you guys sat through the whole thing.

    I've seen teal as a dominatrix for some time now, and I'm pretty much disgusted by the way her 'followers' grovel for the 'privilege' of kissing her ass, but it doesn't make me as sad as seeing Sarbdeep's fierce warrior aspect dissolve into such a meek and humble worshipper right along there with them. Fortunately their relationship has nothing to do with my life so that's a relief.

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  126. ZZB "I lightly skimmed through the first part, long enough to hear her say "write that down Blakey". It was either right there or when she went off to go pee and Sarbdeep started acting like "while the cat's away the mouse will play" that I couldn't take any more and shut it off."

    gosh you nailed it. hahahaha


    ----LV archetypes

    mhhh I always had trouble to relate my feelings to symbolism of other cultures. P.E. the frog stands for abundance, prosperity etc in feng shui. When I look at a frog, it doesn't represent this too me other than a slimy creature. I guess this is where I can't relate to it. I aso remember having many dreams about snakes when I was a child. They were alsways perceived as danger and unaware attacks by others instead of the Kundalini symbolism of many other cutltures.

    It feels a bit to me like recoding the symbolism as soon as you enter the shamanic world. But you could call it "reconnecting with the archetypes" as well. But which one is right? i guess it is different for everybody?

    Also your explanation sounds good, I always stick with my own way of dream interpretation. Sometimes I use literature to become aware what this animal is actually standing for ... I pick the parts were I agree with.

    For me it is like with crystals: you can read many books about the healing property of this one or that one. At the end of the day, they all feel different and I have a very unique understanding to what a certain crystal does or doesn't independent of the book. Now it is clear that a Danburite will probably not *the* grounding stone but each Danburite does very unique things.

    I need to read a bit more about the archetype thingy. It sounds interesting and I am still a bit sceptical of it.BUT it makes sense that encountering a snake during a shamanic practice is very likely highly connected to the symbolism of this realm, although it is exprienced by a western person. I can follow this idea. I am open to it that Sarbdeep's Lizard could have been a beautiful power animal symbolism unrelated to the reptilian concept. Who fucking knows whats right or wrong?

    Madonna the queen of Lizards.
    ah no, I stick with the western one in this case hahahah
    BUT independent of this concept choice, I must admit that Madonna would also match the shamanic meaning of a lizard. I mean.. this woman was rocking and shaking the world - hard core!

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  127. Trees, what a buncha Chatty Cathys they are, huh? Always talking about the sky. Sounds like you had caregivers, zigzag. And fortunately, you had a little more respect for them than that awful boy in The Giving Tree.

    A lot of inner children need reparenting, though. I like inner child work. I had rebirther some years ago who helped to gain an appreciation. I was working in publishing at the time. My inner child was very miserable in this particular office environment. I had to find all kinds of things to distract her so she didn't start throwing temper tantrums and calling a certain marketing director all sorts of names.

    "I lightly skimmed through the first part, long enough to hear her say 'write that down Blakey'."

    That was horrible. The dynamics are really cringetastic. It's way too much information. All their slips are showing, not just hers, if you know what I mean.

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  128. "When I look at a frog, it doesn't represent this too me other than a slimy creature. I guess this is where I can't relate to it."

    One thing I learned as a freshman communications major is that no word/symbol means the same thing to any two people. We all filter things through our experience. The example that was used in one of my text books was "puppy." Universally positive symbol, right? Cuddly, cute, affectionate. We all love puppies. But what if you're some who had a bad experience with a puppy, like you picked one up and it peed all over you, or worse, freaked out and bit you really hard? Then it might not be such a positive association. It might make it hard to appreciate the well-meaning birthday card with the picture of an adorable puppy.

    "I aso remember having many dreams about snakes when I was a child. They were alsways perceived as danger and unaware attacks by others instead of the Kundalini symbolism of many other cutltures."

    Those things might not be as disconnected as you think. Try this on for size: People who attack you are reflections of your own disowned power.

    "For me it is like with crystals: you can read many books about the healing property of this one or that one. At the end of the day, they all feel different and I have a very unique understanding to what a certain crystal does or doesn't independent of the book."

    Exactly. They're the stone people. No two are alike. I choose them carefully, just like human friends. And I think they choose me just as carefully.

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  129. "Those things might not be as disconnected as you think. Try this on for size: People who attack you are reflections of your own disowned power."

    now this makes sense. So western interpretation will always be the first layer of obvious feelings or associations (ignoring now the individual symbolism). Second layer will be more connected with archetype and mirror concept of life. SO in this way Madonna is the reptilian queen and the queen of all qualities of lizards.

    It is like the amazing approach of chuck spezzano. your knee is hurting (first layer). That means that you feel betrayed by life nad cant stand your ground...(second layer)...sorry just made this up to point out things. Then you throw some shaman plants in and you will probably ending up getting a snake wrapped around your knee and squeezing tight..




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  130. i mean - it is all associated symbolism of thoughts connected to experience and definition....in a way. This seems to be the way how focus, desire, blockage and success presents itself with definded images to tell the story of the problem,
    and the story of the solution.

    Life without a story couldn't be perceived, I guess. It is the web of thoughts which connects and builds a/your story. Once 2 thoughts connect - there is the ego. That's why you can never think yourself out of the ego. It is impossible. Any kind of thought action stabilizes the life you perceive.

    So I guess there are 2 things to do: how to influence the life you are thinking and how to detach from thinking.

    mmmhhhhh......just thinking loud

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  131. I have no idea if Madonna is a good lizard queen or a bad lizard queen. I don't even know for sure that he was talking about Madonna. No doubt he's had other female bosses. We all just want it to be Madonna, don't we, because she's so darkly fascinating. We also don't know what exactly he saw that he's calling a queen of the lizards.

    I only brought it up because it pokes at a larger problem in modern, Western culture and this knee-jerk reaction we have to serpent symbolism. These are very complex archetypes with a lot of varied cultural history. I've said it before. I'll say it again. The anti-reptile bias is a form of unconscious sexism and I have a very solid mythical case to support that contention. The mother goddess is strongly associated with serpent symbolism.

    And rejecting anything, out of hand, that looks reptilian would make any sort of shamanic work very difficult.

    There are many interpretations of these symbols. My answer would be to keep working with spirit to find answers, which is why I read by bibliomancy a lot. My guides have an awful lot of fun with me.

    On a side note, I never cared for Madonna. I never liked the way she co-opted everything cool and turned it into hackneyed stupidity overnight. And I hated, HATED, her music. I do love the BiGod 20 cover of Like a Prayer, though. Because awesome.

    http://youtu.be/OfUJL3ikGrQ

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  132. LV said:

    " I believe the spirit world is very real and I believe these archetypes are part of a great system of collective knowledge. And when we first start interacting with it, particularly as "civilized" Westerners, it's like entering a foreign land and having a very limited understanding of the language. We have to learn it by immersion in it and by respecting the spirit world the same way we should respect people in other countries and cultures. They know the terrain much better than we do. "

    I don't know anything really but I like everyone have had experiences. Then I try to understand them.

    In my history i have been in three ayahausca ceremonies. NOT one was like any others'. Not ONCE did I purge or encounter my "traumas" or have a life review.

    The third was the most dramatic and because of the way the structure was set up, because my expression did not fit with the expected, the monitors wrestled me out of the room.

    I was initially ecstatic then singing (conscious but not in control), then I went "out", Later (unconscious at the time) was said to be channeling a history of Gaia on the porch with minders , and I did see and hear another reality when my eyes were open. The stars changed their orbits and coyotes crept up to the porch and sang to me in a new way I can still hear.

    The structure IMO of the ceremony I was a part in as delivered by the society was extremely biased toward expectations and "rules" of acceptable limits of conduct. It decided me then to never subject myself to this box of any religious take out.

    I have charcuna and spirit vine plants that I tend. Now I do not need to drink the vine because I use the permission slip of my own contact with nonphysical reality to gently guide me and to teach me from where I am authentically suited (wherever that IS) at any moment to stretch and expand my own fronteirs.

    I have joined HERE with the idea that the means and pursuits used by one particular "teacher" (by one name a color between aquamarine and sky blue) is anathema to me. My own inner child HATES this teacher. (I invoke hooponopono here with the idea that this representation is HER because as a being she is just doing the best she can with what she has). I believe there is a difference between HEr and what she is doing and yet what she is doing is so GROSS to me still I keep reading this blogmentary in hopes she is well contradicted.

    The systems of supression extend to ALL the outlying ceremonies too when human experience is sanctioned or discouraged.

    When I was in my last ceremony, I spit at the ones trying to carry me out calling them ghouls. This was not when i was conscious. My body at that moment was so heavy that four people had to carry me away. The "problem" was that I was "disrupting" by singing when I "should have been "vomting". Is that as stupid as can be...that singing is just for a "shaman"?? my inner being thinks it is.

    I never saw snakes in using ayahuasuca but I did see green tendrils connecting all in thick fluid that for the moment said to me.."We are feeding from the very Source of Amnios. The Amnios is the sea of our LIFE. We are placenta-ed here. Don't use others cords as they have no connections for you sweetness"....

    What i grokked? Socery is using others energy. because others connecting cords look better than ours and we covet their connection. We starve eventually second hand. Magic is when we love our own being conncetion and feeding on the Amnios.we are supplied all ways.

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  133. I don't know how to delete repetitive posts? I apologize.

    One MORE thing about what my inner child read in LV's write ups. IF Teal gets anything direct from the larger consciousness system, she edits and edits and IF a small bit of truth is there and I respond to that morsel, she cannot then poison me with lies at the same time.

    My inner child is very upset with "people like Teal" because my inner child believes they can inject poison that will kill my inner being. This is the remnant of living with a care giver who had fangs and poison to convey. THAT character of a snake is why I avoid snakes and want others to shy clear.

    I am still re-parenting to be a child with a beautifully tailored semipermeable membrane where no poison can be taken in so I don't need "hard boundaries" any longer.

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  134. I've deleted for you. You can delete the content, but I don't think you can make it disappear entirely. But when I see people have deleted duplicate comments, I generally clean them up.

    Beautiful story, btw. I only wish we had some record of you history of Gaia.

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  135. Thanks LV.

    I saw the post about JZ's rant....

    Did anyone else see this interview from a former RSE employee (an inside security guard for jz)?

    http://youtu.be/ExsFft-6ODo

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  136. I never read 'The Giving Tree', and from the wiki entry on it I'm awfully glad I didn't!

    And while I have said that the cherry tree would "tell me love stories about the sky", it's more like she was just standing there broadcasting her joy as naturally as a bird sings, and I just happened to be there, inadvertently receptive to the energy flow, and, unaware that I was translating that flow from 'tree language'' to 'human language' it understandably just felt like I was having my own thoughts. With a bit more experience under my belt, I have gotten better at recognizing 'treesong' when I am clear enough to hear it... it is rich, elusive, lofty, and yet profoundly grounded in love.

    LV says: "I was working in publishing at the time. My inner child was very miserable in this particular office environment. I had to find all kinds of things to distract her so she didn't start throwing temper tantrums and calling a certain marketing director all sorts of names."

    Hahahahaha!

    And here is a photo of one of my all-time favorite frogs... I think he is much cuter than teal's butler, I just love him:

    https://www.facebook.com/GrowBox/photos/a.497146413655182.98976.122383724464788/497146743655149/?type=1&theater

    Also, I am VERY intrigued by what you have growing in your garden me2!! Fortunately I don't have it growing in my own garden because if I did I would surely be tempted to put it to use and I am just too burnt out to deal with the violence of psychedelics... I prefer a much gentler approach myself these days.

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  137. I have very strong feelings about the The Giving Tree, which is why I don't allow it in the house.

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2011/07/giving-tree-is-sap.html

    I also have something of a tree "thing."

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2011/07/dendrolatry.html

    We have so many frogs and toads around here. They sing in the trees. Not about the sky, necessarily, but they can get really loud. Check out this adorable little guy. What's fun about this is he was clinging to the wall directly below the window of the FROG (finished room over garage).

    http://s239.photobucket.com/user/LaHuesera/media/Public/FROGfrog_zps5a1324f0.jpg.htm

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  138. "We have so many frogs and toads around here. They sing in the trees. Not about the sky, necessarily, but they can get really loud."

    HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

    "Check out this adorable little guy. What's fun about this is he was clinging to the wall directly below the window of the FROG (finished room over garage)."

    Too funny! And what a cute little guy he is, but my heart still belongs to that fat little gentleman leaning so complacently on the 'windowsill' of his his Garden Patch Grow Box house, hehehehe.

    I expect you have already been notified of the responses I left at the first two locations you posted links to, but if not then I've got it covered right here with this 'notification'.

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  139. I just read this comment to her recent blog post (which unfortunatly I didn't read). I was just soo amused by it. Pretty cute, if you get my point


    "ALEX MARTINEZ July 24, 2014 at 2:03 am
    I’m jealous that you have have UNIVERSAL GOOGLE always on in your head, there’s no way I can do what you can do naturally. I wish I had a higher alien consciousness lol. We have phones connected to the Internet woohoo, that’s what we have right now, no super consciousness yet."

    hahahah

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  140. Not a German techno fan, GA? Ah well. Something of an acquired taste, I expect.

    Are we sure Alex wasn't being deadly serious in that comment? It would be in line with so many of the comments she gets.

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  141. DEAD serious he was - for sure.

    I find it amazing how perception and imagination works. I guess this comment is the result of somebody who is fascinated by a story he just got told. A year ago I probably would have said the same as him. Now, a year later, the meaning of universal google has totally changed in my mind in relation to Miss Teal.

    Podcasts are o v e r ...I guess.
    Too image damaging in the long run ( ;

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  142. That's Mistress Teal to you, GA. Now lick her boot like a good little follower. And be sure to tell her how unique and special she is and how you could never dial into the universal google like she can.

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  143. Zigzagbuddha, thanks for leaving your "notification" here, so that I was also directed to read that interesting exchange between you and LV :-)

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  144. Hahaha.... my pleasure Elena! Where are you???

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  145. :-)))

    I'm in Cyprus..at least physically I've arrived two days ago. Still jet-lagged or smth cs I don't feel fully present here yet, like I'm just watching a movie or smth.. But then it was one hell of a week and I had a weird accident which left me with some minor but still painful injuries and the flights were all messed up...and then as I was finally ready to get some sleep after arrival there was a little fire downstairs and I had to be evacuated...and then a storm yesterday...

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  146. Sounds like a pretty traumatic move! But at least you didn't turn around and go back to Canada without even unpacking! And thank all the gods in the universe the experience wasn't topped off by your mother refusing to get your juice bottle because in that case you probably wouldn't get over it for the rest of your life.

    I'm pretty sure it's not going to take too long for the new environment to work its magic on you. Do you meditate?

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  147. Geez, Elena. Fire, accident, and storms. I thought my last move was bad. But did they break all your stuff, is the question.

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  148. So, is this just a string of tired cliches or autobiography? Or both? And why is she orange?

    http://youtu.be/YjY-1JWED7E

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  149. Looks like autobiography to me and finally a video with a make up free Teal- I think she wants to teach Sarb something with the video. Now that the podcasts/noncasts are over, consider a "questioning teal" series ( ;

    BTW: I have no desire of licking her boots - strange phantasies LV- I wonder...

    Elena: can you chill a bit. You are on some kind of trip aren't you :D

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  150. I actually was attracted to the video this time and watched half. It looks like she is doing autobiography. Yes, from what she has "revealed" about Sarbs, the video seems to justify "why I act like a bitch...it's the withdrawal of you trying to get away from me dominating you, stupid."

    He married a gREST SPIRITUAL teacher and wakes up with Teal in the mornings. That IMO is a role reversal as most of the time, GURU is man and chela is woman. The need to dominate that is evident in Teal's presence cannot work happily close up. And the "tells" of being a hypocrite will build up in a short time. So he has definitely set himself up just as has has set herself up....

    I am embracing that we only feel inspired to "teach" what we cannot do, otherwise we'd just be doing like we 'just breathe" because if we believe we cannot " just breathe", we try to teach "proper breathing"....

    Also we cannot "teach" people who see us NOT doing. That is why distance only works for the GURU. The teacher who is a husband (or wife) is going to have to be looking a hypocrite. The oddity of the desire to"sleep" with an enlightened being is that the ones who ARE, will just be quietly living and you might NEVER know who was behind that simple exterior.

    I say BEWARE the ones who cannot do and so teach loudly asking for donation for their disabilty. Now except for entertainmant value, the age of all that has expired and the milk spoiled. Disappointment "the 21st century rage inevitable" as we grow up.

    Teal, just show the one's next to you what you CAN do, claim nothing and be yourself and MAYBE happy at home.

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  151. "I am embracing that we only feel inspired to 'teach' what we cannot do, otherwise we'd just be doing like we 'just breathe" because if we believe we cannot 'just breathe', we try to teach 'proper breathing'... "

    I have a slightly different take on this. I think we teach what we are in the process of learning. I think the best teachers share their passion for their own discovery process. Where teachers and their students get into trouble is in the assumption that the teacher knows everything. You shouldn't stop learning 'til you're dead. But we fall into these hierarchical patterns, wherein teachers are expected to have all the answers and students are supposed to be docile. It permeates our educational system and our religions. It makes for horrible, soul-crushing systems.

    There is always a learning curve. People who are further along in a certain process of discovery can be great teachers but they need to remain humble enough to admit when they don't know something and when their students know more. They need to admit when they're wrong and be accorded the freedom to change their minds when new information presents itself.

    The problem comes from both sides. Teachers have been known to arrogate power but there's also a lot of pressure on teachers to have all the answers and they can fall into the trap of trying to meet that ridiculous expectation. So a lot of good teachers have become bad teachers because they've come to believe their own bullshit. Some teachers just start out bad because of their need to be right and/or their need for adulation and excessive admiration.

    One of the reasons I started writing about teal was that her language repeatedly betrayed that kind of grandiosity. She doesn't handle disagreement well. And she deigns to speak with authority on a range of topics which don't even fall under the purview of a spiritual teacher. She doesn't cite sources to back up her assertions. Now she's a relationship expert. Based on what? That she's in her third marriage? And keeps her exes on standby? It think that video is about her own patterns, which she's once again projected onto other people, and pronounced as a common problem. Once again, her problems are everybody's problems, and since she's not sharing this from a personal perspective, she's not citing THE source of these ideas.

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  152. ".... she's once again projected onto other people, and pronounced as a common problem."

    "I think we teach what we are in the process of learning. I think the best teachers share their passion for their own discovery process."

    What you are saying LV about "teaching" is what I would consider "leading". leading is doing what one considers of value and sharing but what I consider teaching is a step removed. It means that one can preach while not practicing.

    the distinction is what is meaningful to guidance. Though I have a concern for example that 12 steps programs could use a 13th, a drunk cannot guide a drunk and one who has never lived out of control drunkenness and then managed sobriety can only 'teach' hypothetically about the challenge.

    But then these are just wordings and I think we can agree that you can only really give me a hand up if you are ahead in scaling the mountain on the slippery slope of life. Here is a quote.

    "Yoga is a system, scientifically proven to boost your climbing ability significantly. Why do you think you always see that Guru figure sitting on the top of the mountain? You think he/she got there by enlightenment ?" — Lg

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  153. Bright Sided isn't a self-help book and it's not anything teal would want to base her profile on. Barbara Ehrenreich is a journalist who writes mostly on social and political issues. Nickle and Dimed is probably her best known book.

    Ehrenreich survived cancer treatment and came out on the other side furious about having "stay positive" bullshit shoved down her throat while she was fighting for her life. Similar thing happened to a good friend of mine and I know he became quite enamored of that book. My husband has also read it and pronounced it excellent. I haven't read it. It's on my long book list, not the short one. Needless to say, I agree with her basic premise. I think the "tyranny of a positive attitude" is dangerous on a lot of levels.

    I think you're right that teal has based her "teachings" on a lot of new age, self help stuff. As discussed, Abraham Hicks and Bashar seem pretty evident. And some others. I think she's also begun to realize that the promises of a lot of the LOA material fall short and she's unfortunately realizing it after insisting that it's the fundamental truth that she has special insight into because she's actually an Arcturian and knows this universal truth that most of us don't. She's staked her reputation on it. Oops. And she's also discovered that it's coming into conflict with the reality of her life which is that she can't stay positive all the time, or for very long at all really. So, you know, Spirituality 2.0.

    I wasn't familiar with some of this, though. Like the self-help couple who offed themselves. Dear God, how sad. I'd missed that. I'm going to have to take a look at that video you posted when I get a minute.

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  154. "The truth somedays is that I would give back every single good thing that has ever happened in my life and anything good that came of the experience, to erase my past. Forgiveness sounds good to the heart, but it cannot be 'willed' into existence. It cannot be forced, it cannot be fake. Rushed forgiveness is nothing more than a horror scene covered over with gentle yellow paint. You cannot forgive as long as what happened still e!ects your life constantly."

    But I thought she had forgiven the Mormon Satanist and that this was why she just didn't want to see him subjected to the criminal justice system. I seem to remember a certain "free lance" journalist named Jason Freedman, who strangely shares a phone number with Blake Dyer, even wrote an article about it. It was even called "An Amazing Story of Forgiveness."

    "But the real heart of this story is found in the fact that Teal has become healthy and found joy to such an extent that she has completely forgiven her abusers."

    I don't know. Maybe Mr. Freedman misunderstood. He just doesn't know her very well, I guess.

    "Some would say forgiveness is the way to ensure that your past won’t negatively a!ect your life constantly. I say that those people are either lying to themselves or those people have not su!ered enough to know despair on a personal level. The truth is..."

    Because teal always knows what the truth is and people who disagree or a have a different experience are wrong. They're lying or in denial. She knows what everybody else is feeling. She knows everything. She experienced that special enlightenment process -- let's call it Malkovichian enlightenment -- wherein everyone had her face. You think you know you? Don't kid yourself. You're just like teal. We all are.

    GA, this post is sickening. Do I really need to go on?

    Sigh.

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  155. it is a very interesting blog post... I know you wouldn't choose the word "interesting" for it. Thanks for the info about the book. It sounded like a selfhelp book. I am surrounded be many bullshitmeters like my sister...who never could stand the empty phrases of my "positive" dad and called him out many times. I think i have the antidot against this mental illness, independent of Teal's public show. Still think she got in touch with it. I am a bit obsessed with tracing everything back.

    I would rather prefer not to go into the whole cancer subject as I always start a war in other people with my opinion on it.

    I didn't read much about the couple but I picked up that the whole dynamic was very sensitive and fragile and I always see the problem with these days when depression hits one or the other. If they are very focused on each other, it is hard to resist and usually both go down the dark hole. Without any further study I don't know what to make of it. I just know about my personal experience when I encountered a very hopeful and promising concept suggested to me (at this stage by Teal) ...the euphoria and then the deep fall after I realized that it was all a shit story and I was actually taking the piss out of myself without realizing it. That was dark. Now I have too many things which pull me straight back out of holes...like my crystals and nature and art. It looks like both went down together and there was no rescue of their own tougth dynamic.

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  156. Teal's latest blog is "epic" :D
    puppet mastery at its best.... when reading it with a undrugged mind.
    However - I think that the people who follow her material with all their hearts and enthusiasm - have truly a beautiful self experience. Just like "What About Bob?". Bob's mind structure was so benevolent

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  157. "Forgiveness is not the state of forgetting and letting go. It is the state of finding approval for what happened. How can you find approval for what torments you? Whoever finds out the answer to that question, will be an instant millionaire."

    See that? Everyone's been defining forgiveness wrong.

    Actually there are many definitions for forgiveness. I think we need to come up with some other words, really. Because I think in many cases, forgiveness should not mean readmitting toxic people back into our lives. This Christian idea of forgiveness has worked out pretty badly in the Amish community, actually. It's led to epidemic levels of sexual abuse.

    But a lot of us see forgiveness as a way of letting go of the past and not giving people rent-free space in your head anymore. Doesn't mean it's easy, or fast, or even possible in some cases.

    Aside from that, I love the way teal keeps equating insight with vast wealth. It's nice when people can get paid for their work, but psychic, spiritual, and psychological insight aren't really big moneymakers. Writing is not a moneymaker. It is the rare writer who actually makes a living at it, particularly non-fiction writers. They have to do other things, related or otherwise, to make a decent living. Some beat expectations, but it's kind of like saying that acting is a great living because a handful of A-list actors make millions per picture. Most working actors still have to wait tables.

    After years of working in publishing the best advice I have for aspiring authors is, "Don't quit your day job."

    I just think she's got a distorted idea about the value of ideas.

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  158. "I am a bit obsessed with tracing everything back."

    That's a healthy obsession, GA. Knowledge is power.

    "I would rather prefer not to go into the whole cancer subject as I always start a war in other people with my opinion on it."

    Here's the thing. Whether you're a fan of the allopathic approach or not, and I'm not, it's the primary option for most people who become seriously ill. The problem Ehrenreich ran into, as I understand it, and she is not alone, is that the "positive thinking" thing has made its way into allopathic environments. So nurses and other medical practitioners start pressuring their patients to stay positive and not think negative thoughts. Ironic when you consider that the research does not support the conclusion that a positive attitude changes medical outcomes. And there's nothing worse, particularly when you're in that vulnerable state, than medical personnel telling you what to feel. That control freak shit is bad enough on a good day.

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  159. "People want me to be their savior."

    Delusions of grandeur much? And, I don't know, maybe calling herself a "Eucharist" might not have been such a good idea if she was really interested in managing expectations on that score.

    "People want me to say that everything happens for a reason and that what you went through will be worth it and that everything comes to bless you, because it means they don’t have to face the fact that deep down, they feel desperate. Deep down, they don’t KNOW whether this is all some sick cosmic joke, or whether there really is purpose in the immeasurable su!ering that they endure here. If someone like me tells them that it will all be ok and that they have su!ered for good reason, they can use that as a substitute for hope. They can hold on to it like a rope and lead themselves out of hell. And who doesn’t want to give a child a teddy bear? Who doesn’t want to comfort them when they are lonely and afraid? So we keep holding seminars and workshops. We keep writing books and selling DVDs. Even when we feel the same way that they do. Is it possible that our own words comfort us? That we keep on repeating these things that we want to believe, because it’s the only way we, ourselves come to believe it?"

    I don't know, is it? Oh my god, she's really having some sort of meltdown.

    "The truth is, even people like myself, who have developed access to universal consciousness struggle with shadow."

    All that and she STILL puts herself on a pedestal. Even I... Oh, please. I've said it before, I will say it again. Unversal consciousness is not something anyone needs to "develop access" to. You ARE universal consciousness. The time of the priests who claimed special knowledge of God that needed to be bestowed on the little people is over.

    She wants to "destroy the division between student and master" and yet here she is, still claiming that she has access to "universe" that the rest of us don't. Well, which is it?

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  160. When I was 19 or 20, somewhere around there, a guy injected me with Nembutal. All the veins in my arms and were used up so he shot it into the vein running along the top of my foot. The next day I squeezed my feet into a pair of skin tight spike-heeled boots and set off hitchhiking out of San Francisco headed to Mexico with a friend. By the time we got to southern California my foot was hurting real bad and so we stopped off at my grandparents (not the ones with the farm that I loved). As soon as I took my boot off my foot blew up like a balloon and within a couple of days it had turned blackish green and was oozing pus, even from the skin around the needle prick. My grandmother took me to a doctor who put me in the hospital because the foot had gone gangrene.

    They wanted to amputate but I refused. So they cut out all the rotted flesh and vein and cleaned it up as well as they could, but told me that if it continued to spread they would have to take it off anyway, and kept me there to keep a close eye on it. Needless to say I was pretty scared. So was my grandmother who stood by my bedside wringing her hands. It was touch and go for awhile, but I managed to keep my foot.

    The doctors think it was their skill and plenty of good luck that did the job, and I just let them think that because because certainly it was their skill that made it possible, but I know exactly when the course of the infection reversed, and it had nothing to do with good luck. It was when the stress had gotten waaaay too much for me to handle, I just flipped and decided fuck it, if I lost my foot I would stick a peg in my stump, call myself peg-leg and play pirate. Waves of sweet relief swept through me like scrubbing bubbles and that was the point when my foot started healing. I can't prove it to anybody else but I know it because I felt it happen, and my feelings don't lie.

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  161. But wait, there's more... 4 or 5 years ago I was trucking along pretty nicely... I had discovered the value of examining my beliefs and changing the ones that didn't serve me, I had a really fun job with a bunch of fun people, I was practicing kundalini yoga and feeling pretty pleased with myself that at 58 years old I was still 'turning heads' and guys still got a hard-on just looking at me (I was practicing celibacy so that's as far as it went, but it still gave me a certain egotistical satisfaction.)

    Then something happened and I got hit with a tsunami of negative emotion. It knocked me on my ass and left me for dead. Pain started a death dance through my body, first here, then there, then everywhere and rigor mortis set in.

    My dragged me to a doctor where I was diagnosed with "a severe case of aggressive rheumatoid arthritis". The doctor's eyes practically popped out of her head when she looked at the report on my blood samples. She ruefully informed me that it was not curable and that I would most likely end up in a wheel chair in the not too distant future.

    I never went back to her, or any other doctor, again. I didn't see the point since they couldn't 'cure' me but only scare me worse than I already was. But I was in indescribable non-stop pain... it was in my neck, my shoulders, my elbows, my wrists, my fingers, my hips, my knees my ankles, my feet, and my toes. Every day for the next year or so I cried and cried and cried, both from the incredibly unfuckingbelievable pain, and from feeling sorry for myself.

    My hands and feet were becoming deformed. I could not stand up from a seated position without assistance. I had to have a rope hanging from the ceiling to help me get out of bed and the pain was excruciating (that was when I cried the most), and going to the bathroom was a nightmare. The whole experience was a nightmare... my life as I knew it was over. In one fell swoop the me I thought I was had come crashing to the ground and all I could do was cry.

    I did not believe it was possible to find a positive aspect in my situation, the idea seemed like a shallow, ridiculous and cruel joke, and if anyone had been around me suggesting it I would have felt the need to kill them, preferably with my bare, deformed hands.

    At first I just wallowed in my misery, but deep down I knew it was imperative to find some kind of emotional relief if I wanted my body to heal itself. My attention was locked into the pain though and distraction felt like heaven... I used pain relieving drugs by the handful; I slept 12 to 16 hours a day; I listened to Anne McCaffrey's entire Dragonriders of Pern series (thank god for audiobooks because I couldn't even fucking hold a regular book, not even a paperback). That phase lasted about a year, more or less.

    Then I discovered a channel on tv that focused on health which aired a lot of shows about people who had cured themselves of 'incurable' diseases, which inspired me. I started sitting outside on the patio surrounded by big, beautiful, shady trees, which calmed me and helped me feel more grounded. But I secretly believe that Two and a Half Men (the ones with Charlie Sheen) and The Big Bang Theory saved my life. I laughed for the first time in almost 2 years. I laughed and laughed and laughed til I was in tears and thought I was going to die laughing!

    And it was only then that I was finally able to find the positive aspects of my situation. The list was an eye opener to say the least, and gave me a 'birds eye view' of the way matter responds to spirit. I have hugely, tremendously, profoundly, benefited from this condition - spiritually, mentally, and physically. I wouldn't even consider wishing it undone, that's how much I have gained from the experience.

    So you all can go on about what a crock o' shit a positive attitude is, but I know different. And I know it from experience, not as an intellectual exercise in absurdity.

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  162. I don't think a positive attitude is a crock of shit. I think forcing a positive attitude on people who aren't in that space and telling them to stuff their negative feelings is a crock of shit. Everything you just described is something you sourced from within yourself. You went through your own internal process, in which you felt all the negative feelings first, came complete with them, and went through a transformational process that was organic and personal. I'm not at all surprised it worked for you. And I'm genuinely glad that it did.

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  163. ZZB, you are the consciousness in your experience IMO now and forever "working this out" at the moment as a woman humanoid character. I have loved reading all your experiences (along with everyones' here). It is an honor to witness your journey.

    I am SURE we continue on in conscious awareness always expanding. The trick is what kind of awareness have we developed through the dense physical journey NOW?

    Also, do we want to keep coming back repetitively investigating this physical drama of suffering and all that is considered necessary to "life" because we didn't "grok" what we sought to gather from physical experience? NOT ME!!!!!!!!

    Forgiveness is now IMO the major tool to use to release all my mistaken beliefs and concepts. It is so much more than I ever credited it as the way to become a FREE being. I was contemplating this gift yesterday and feeling so much gratitude that I am alive and can ditch my BS. It's all BS (belief systems).

    What some people have observed through nonphysical experiences like OBE and NDE is that we don't "die" yet we don't suddenly change our consciousness quota by loss of the body. I am enjoying William Buhlman (WB) lately.

    I have no real draw to try to have OBE but I have had several lucid dreams. In them I was frustrated by having closed eyes every time. WB helped me understand that in nonphysical, we don't have outer senses and I am relieved that maybe I was working that out by always being lucid with closed eyes I was fixated on opening?

    I consider myself a student of the work of Joe Dispenza ("You Are The Placebo" IMO the best kind of book...purely aimed at empowerment!!). My latest take on his work is that it is still about the best sythesis of adding intention to energy and new information so we can create a chosen new life without the need to die and then come back hoping for the best. This is the cutting edge.

    I sincerely expect that we are "here" to know our own creative power and the "time" is ripe to be conscious of this capacity. Healing is one avenue, psychonautics another, overcoming all and any "difficulty'...all gamuts from A to Z to experience WE are the point of being here. To have a conscious awareness of one's capacity (in retrospect most times) of our effect on our own "life" means we will have been changed through life. We grow our consciousness.

    To my way of thinking we are multidimesnional and already "have everything" but as to paraphrase "someone"..."the difference between knowing you are an aspect of God in form and being that particular aspect of God in form is everything!!"

    The following is IMO awesome awesome and awesome

    http://youtu.be/ZlZNmwCD1pA

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  164. Looking forward to your next non cast ( : ...

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  165. I'm throwing this link here, as well as posting it in the news feed, because we were discussing the DMT, ayahuasca question before. See, this author is having a bit of fun and causing mass confusion by pointing out that this Schedule 1 drug is found in simply everything. Of course, it's meaningless because the body deactivates the DMT so your oranges and lemons don't cause you to hallucinate. What would actually be necessary, if you wanted to journey using citrus fruits is the vine of souls, ayahuasca, to deactivate that buzz-killing enzyme.

    "It may surprise you to learn that common citrus trees like oranges and lemons are actually Schedule I substances, in the same legal category as heroin. I know it sounds absurd, but it is absolutely true."

    http://the-nexian.me/home/knowledge/112-citrus-growers-manufacture-huge-amounts-of-dmt

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  166. That's probably why the smell of citrus trees is so uplifting, hahaha!

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  167. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 1

    In which Ward Cleaver and the Black Dahlia code-talk about their relationship problems.

    In all seriousness, what is she wearing? I mean it would be great as club-wear. I know when I was spending my evenings in Goth/Industrial clubs, we all used to wear slips as dresses. Throw on some fishnet stockings and Luichiny platforms, it's a good look. (I'm in a different place in my life now. The hard part is keeping my daughter from hurting herself, clumping around the house in those Luichiny platforms.)

    What's also funny about their attire is that teal is talking a lot about some generic little girl who couldn't get daddy's attention and did things like dance moves and somersaults to try to get it. Of course that little girl grows up longing for love from emotionally unavailable men and doing everything she can to keep their attention. And more than in any teacast I can think of, she is "dressed to arrest" in this one. (Look at me! Look at me! I'm practically naked!) Sarbdeep, meanwhile, is dressed like a 1950s sitcom dad. Subtle.

    "She looks like she pulled something out of the evidence room after the Black Dahlia murder." ~ J

    But considering that teal's also talking about all the death threats she receives in a recent blog post, maybe that's another veiled message. I certainly don't want teal to be murdered. That would be horrible. You know who else I don't want to be murdered? This woman who did some YouTube videos questioning teal's practices, and was subsequently was harassed, insulted, and had to block someone for making veiled, creepy death threats.

    Has teal ever ordered her "army" to back the fuck down? Or even asked them nicely to please stop harassing people in her name? If she has, I've never seen it. Instead, she dog-whistles to her followers about defending her honor by going after people who are mean to her. (read: critics) Like when she wrote a blog post about her high school knight in shining armor putting another kid in the hospital because he talked shit about her. 

    The thing I've noticed about teal is that, even when she's revealing her "shadow," she's always the victim. Her publicly stated shadow work always involves her unearthing things that were done to her.


    "And just like that, I encountered the reflection of a lingering shadow within me. Since people first discovered my 'abilities', I have found myself in the inquisition all over again in this
    life. [I thought our past lives didn't have anything to do with what we law of attract in this life and everything was about our childhood. Hasn't she said that repeatedly... and recently?] As a child, I was haunted by the perpetual perception that people wished to extinguish me. And it was not that it felt worse than it actually was. Many people did want me to die, as people often do when they feel powerless enough to something that they cannot conceive of peace with you alive."

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  168. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 2

    Oh, poor teal. She's just too beautiful and special for this world. She's constantly persecuted for it. And her "shadow" reflections never have anything she's done to other people. Like, say, riling people up to attack whomever she's mad at: Fallon, Cameron, me, the Herald Journal editor who didn't offer full, uncritical support for her Satanic abuse story...

    Time and time again, she has sat on her hands while those she's deemed "anti-teal" were vilified, insulted, and threatened, by her devoted followers. So forgive me if I don't get all weepy about a little of that "hate" being turned back in her direction.

    The catalyst for this particular foray into self-pity was a video we discussed a while back, in which some people in the Czech Republic burn -- or at least attempt to burn -- a piece of her artwork. The joke's on them. Apparently teal's artwork is treated with a flame-retardant of some kind.


    "It was burnt because they think I am satanic and because they also think I am a disguised reptilian. The burning is a symbolic message that I am not welcome here."


    Welcome where? In the Czech Republic? On Earth? Is this because she's actually an alien? You can almost hear the chanting and shouting at the... border... or... exosphere... (???)

    "Arcturians go home!"

    "No dual citizenship for soul forks!"

    "Stupid Space Mexicans!"

    "Never mind the wall at the border, where's our space shield? Fucking Demotards!"

    But teal has her own take on why these people have deemed her a Satanic reptilian.


    "Upon reflection, I find that I may represent a great many powerless feelings that lie dormant within someone’s being. Perhaps the people who burnt this painting have felt powerless to money and feel that charging (what is by their standards) a large sum of money, means that like a mosquito, I intend to drain people of their resources or deny them the healing they need because they lack the money. Maybe they feel powerless to those who have power, but whom do not have their best interest at heart."


    A mosquito? Mosquito's don't drain people of anything. They take just enough blood to be mildly irritating. Do you think maybe she was going to say vampire and thought better of it, because it might just sound a little too on the nose?

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  169. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 3

    What I don't get is why she's making this about the money. If it's the cost of the painting that bothers them, why not sell it? And why did they buy it in the first place? I don't actually know how they came by the painting. I'm betting they were one-time fans of hers who got turned off.

    Maybe they were just driven mad by the painting itself. Those terrible eyes! They follow me everywhere in the room! They haunt my dreams...

    I mean, I can see why someone might find that painting rather menacing. I find much of her artwork menacing. It's jagged, fragmentary, and sensorially overwhelming. And that one has something that looks very much like eyes, but they're all hard angles.

    Much has been made of the fact that serial killer John Wayne Gacy was a clown who entertained children in hospitals. It sounds lovely, maybe even slightly mitigating, until you consider that his clown make-up was kind of terrifying and that this just might have been a clue. Again, it was all hard angles. Most people who clown for kids use big curved lines. They try to look softer, not harder, than real life. Gacy's clown face showed just a bit of the mad torture killer behind it.

    Maybe that's how these people, who had presumably laid out at least part of the $400 for it, came to see that painting.

    The painting is called "Integrity," for some reason. It's not something that suggests itself to me when I look at it, but then the only name I can come up with for most of her paintings is something like, "A Child's Coloring Book of Nightmares."


    "As ironic as it is that integrity was the painting that they chose to burn, it is equally ironic, that the hater and the hated share this same sensation of powerlessness to each other."


    So how is that ironic? Is she saying that burning a painting you own, in order to make a statement, shows a lack of integrity? I don't see how. Integrity means adhering to your own value system, not someone else's. To have integrity is to be integral. They certainly seemed to be acting according to their own beliefs.

    Maybe these people bought the painting specifically to burn, something that requires a good bit of dedication. Perhaps they were reveling in the irony of a painting called "Integrity" by a woman they think has none.

    As for the latter part of her statement there on irony, I don't really see how that's ironic either. Is it that we should expect that there's no commonality between teal and her detractors? I wouldn't, so I don't see the irony, but maybe that's a matter of perspective.

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  170. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 4

    I've questioned teal's idiosyncratic use of the word irony many times before, but she actually seems to be doubling down on her flagrant and perpetual misuse. In the teacast, after mocking Sarbdeep for sounding like some sort of automaton news anchor, she boldly states, "Irony!"

    We wait to hear what is ironic about her laughing at poor Sarbdeep for sounding like a professional. She turns and stares into the camera, as if to say, Fuck you, LaVaughn! I'll use the word however I damn well please.

    "Irony!" she says again. "You just got criticized."

    What is ironic about her endless nitpicking of Sarbdeep, I have no idea.

    We know she has access to a dictionary because she recently introduced a whole thing about using one to figure out your emotional... life purpose... map thing. Perhaps she thinks dictionary use should be entirely creative. You know, look up a word, and if you don't like the definition say, "fuck it" and call things emotions that aren't emotions at all. Completely disregard the definition of words like irony and use them however you want. Alanis Morisette, wrong as she was, was still closer to the correct meaning.

    As she launches into her explanation of the "please love me" pattern, she says.


    "This is the ironic part. We not only think we love this person instead of this person. We think they love us, too."


    That is not irony. That is emotional confusion and projection. Seriously. How on earth is that ironic?

    Oh, well. We should perhaps bear in mind that she's actually Arcturian and human is not her first language.

    What I find increasingly disturbing about these teacasts is the way teal is positioned as an expert on things she has no expertise in. She's not a marriage counselor. She's on her third marriage and has had some spectacular public breakups. This does not make her an expert on relationship dynamics. Quite the opposite. And of course, she cites not a single source. Yet the whole set-up here is that Sarbdeep, doing his anchorman impression, asks her questions as if she's an expert. He doesn't ask her for her opinion and they certainly aren't discussing these things as equals. He doesn't say, Why do you think that is? He says, Why is that?

    As if she fucking knows.

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  171. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 5

    I guess it's fair to say that she knows something about the "please love me" chasing pattern she's describing because she's obviously talking about herself. Where she errs, as I said earlier, regarding her Ask Teal version of this topic, is in projecting it onto everybody else. To hear her tell it, very common -- the most common female to male dynamic in the world today. She might even be able to get away with that if she stuck to broad generalities, but she can get real specific about what the parents were like and the exact set of dynamics. That really narrows the aperture quite a bit, and again, makes it obvious she's talking about herself.

    She's the one who, by her own admission, "is never satisfied with the intimacy level in relationship" and wants her men to "gestate" her and carry her around in a giant Baby Bjorn.

    "She's a riddle, inside an enigma, wrapped in a Baby Bjorn, and sewn into a corpse." ~ J, with apologies to Churchill

    Sometimes, though, she acknowledges that it can be men who are chasing unavailable women.


    "It would happen in a situation where it's like, what I see this with is sons who were born to performers usually get that one. If you had a performer mother who was all about herself, who's like look at me and never had time for the son. And he was always wanting attention, couldn't get the attention. She was always lavishing her attention on men or goin' off to parties and leaving him with other people. Now, that sets up that dynamic. Now he's like going for unreachable women who are all about themselves. Super narcissistic. That's when you usually see it manifest in the other way."


    Uuuhhh....

    "Winter, are you taking notes?" ~ J

    This got more and more cringeworthy as it went along and became more and more obviously about teal and Sarbdeep. Despite his efforts to keep it on point and accessible to an audience, teal's transparent attempts to whip him into shape were painful to watch.

    "Subtext is this close to being text." ~ J

    As ever, teal is in complete control. For good measure, she starts off by criticizing Sarbdeep for his anchorman style, thereby setting a lovely tone, and securing her alpha dog status. There's a reason I keep harping on this. He takes these jabs with good humor but they're power plays. Picking at people's flaws, particularly in public, is painful and erodes self-esteem. What she's doing here is worse. She's attacking his strengths and trying turn them into weaknesses. Sarbdeep is a much more polished communicator than teal. He's more likable and accessible which is why he's being recast as her magic decoder ring. So she's undermining him for is ability speak clearly and smoothly.

    Of course there's also the rudeness, the interruptions, the turning his questions back on him. This is her show and he's the humble, if stiff, interviewer.

    "Shut up voice of reason, in your sensible sweater. I'm on a roll." ~ J

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  172. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 6

    After a few minutes of explaining how women make bad choices and choose unavailable men, as opposed to men who meet their needs and speak their "love language" -- hers is gifts, btw, in case you didn't get enough copies of the memo about those TPS reports -- Sarbdeep becomes increasingly solicitous, more and more like a supplicant.

    There is an awkward moment, though, around the 9:00 minute mark, when teal explains the classic attachment to the lovable but alcoholic father. He breaks eye contact with her and gazes out, more towards the camera, a look of dawning realization on his face. "That's a very familiar archetype that I've seen in movies a lot actually."

    He throws her a slyly challenging look. Dare I say it? She's busted. This is, after all, the woman who tried to demonstrate her "core imprint" idea by talking about Maggie Gyllenhaal's character in Stranger than Fiction. (I caught that movie again the other day on Sundance. It is as I remembered. No dictionary or thesaurus involved in Ana's career change. Nothing to do with discovering core negative imprints or maps toward emotional signatures that aren't emotions at all. Just your typical story of someone who realized she was pursuing a career that wasn't the best use of her interests and talents.) For a moment, teal stiffens. She nods uncomfortably. But she quickly recovers and goes back to telling us how cliched child-parent dynamics result in cliched romantic relationship dynamics.

    And where, oh where, would teal be without straw men to take bizarre contradictory positions so she can argue against them with trite, obvious points? According to her, people "love to say" they're not "creatures of habit." Silly people. Obviously we tend to sleep on the same side of the bed, eat at the same restaurants, put our toothbrushes away in the same place. See? We're "super habitual."

    Well, no kidding. Human beings are creatures of habit. Is there anyone, anywhere who did not know this?

    "Who says they're not a creature of habit? Fucking nobody." ~ J

    So, here's the thing. Most of what she's saying is pretty Freudian: Oedipal and Electra complexes, repetition compulsion... And I think those ideas were some of his better ones. The thing is, hers is probably the worst, most facile presentation of these fairly well-known ideas, maybe, ever. She's not bringing anything new to the table except a rigid adherence to specific narratives that are nowhere near as universal as she's declaring them to be.

    Both women and men crave intimacy, says teal, but women, slightly more so, so women are more likely to chase their partners. Why? Strap in.

    As per teal, humans don't have canine teeth, which is false. But that goes back to her veganism argument which I dealt with in an earlier noncast. She further claims here that predators can function alone and that prey animals survive because of groups. This is also false. To name just a handful of predator species that are communal, lions, wolves, hyenas, and humans. Many prey species do not rely on groups for protection, except in some cases, to warn each other. Most prey animals are pretty much on their own when they're attacked. Even those that do live in groups, mostly just run when they're under attack. Prey animals rely on things like camouflage, noxious secretions, and speed. And of course many predators are also prey, depending on context, like, say, humans. Some predator/prey species defend their groups. Again, humans are about the best example.

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  173. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 7

    Communal living among wildlife and humans is not simply about protection. It's about sharing resources. It's efficient. The group that hunts and gathers together, stays together. Many animals, both wild and domestic, also exhibit emotional attachments.

    According to teal, women are more inclined to stay in bad relationships for safety because of this evolutionary need for protection from predation in our childbearing years. For women, relationships are about the emotion of "safety." For men, it's all about the emotion of "being fed." Once again, teal has isolated emotions that are in no way way emotions.

    That said, I agree to an extent with her overall point. But at that primal level, it's not simply about fear of predation. It's also about sustenance. Communal living is an efficient use of resources. Pregnancy, breastfeeding, and child-rearing are communally supported activities for humans. Our babies are born extremely vulnerable, more than is the case in most if not all of the animal kingdom. We are more prone to death in childbirth than other animals, which means those infants that survive their mothers' deaths need other people to care for them. Reproduction does indeed make us very vulnerable and in need of someone else to gather food and see to other material needs. I agree with teal this far: A woman's somewhat more relational nature is probably due to the challenges of child-bearing. So her lengthy explanation of why women stay in bad relationships gets a rating of about "mostly false," as opposed to "pants on fire." That's a refreshing change.

    And, you know, if teal were just an average person being perpetually, factually wrong, that would be one thing. That she's rearranging history, torturing archaeology, and abusing the sciences -- no, healing past trauma is not time travel because "quantum universe" -- might not be a big deal if she weren't positioning herself as an authority. And she's being treated as an authority, not just by Sarbdeep, but by a rather large following. She claims to be a "spiritual intuitive," the "highest" form of intuition, and to have "the knowing." But a good bit of the time she just sounds like Cliff from Cheers.

    As per teal, both men and women, crave intimacy, even though for women there's a little more intensity because we bear children. Fair enough. What's interesting about that is that throughout this teacast, there is almost nothing about meeting a man's needs. It's excruciatingly apparent that this is all about teal wanting something from Sarbdeep that she's not getting. She even goes so far as to have him envision the perfect father for an imaginary little girl so that she'll grow up prepared to draw that kind of partner. But teal doesn't do this vision exercise for an imaginary little boy. What about her actual son and his "performer" mother? What about Sarbdeep who is practically bending himself into pretzels to try to please her. How are Sarbdeep's needs getting met? We know from this broadcast that shit is going on. He's experiencing rages, for instance, and truly wants to know where that's coming from.

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  174. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 8

    It's alluded to that he's doing the emotional processing thing that she's "just discovered" (???) and appears to feel that it's helping. But while teal is forcing him to publicly examine all the ways that he's not meeting her needs, the woman who wants every aspect of her life to be public doesn't demonstrate any such thought experiment. Not here. It's strongly implied that she's controlling and hypercritical -- 'cause that's how all mothers are -- but we don't see anything about how she's trying to fix that little problem. This is a show about how teal felt like her father wasn't giving her enough attention, how now her husband isn't giving her enough attention, and how she's going to bloody well teach him how to do that in a very public way. This is not a show about how a child of an abusive alcoholic ended up in a relationship with a woman who nitpicks and belittles him.

    I don't know. Maybe in the future she'll cover the "stop criticizing me and show me love and respect" dynamic and demonstrate what that looks like.

    As Sarbdeep envisions raising his imaginary daughter, he talks a lot about her autonomy. He wants to respect her as an individual. He thinks it's pretty easy to raise kids -- obvious that he's not really a parent -- and that they only need a few things. They're "like flowers." They need water, air, nourishment, and nurturing. I think I see what he means. Not micromanaging your kids makes child-rearing a lot less complicated. It's kind of a nice metaphor. Let them blossom as nature intended instead of trying to remake them into what you want.

    This whole thing seems to make teal uncomfortable. She, once again, nitpicks his explanation to death, and the implication is that this imaginary little girl -- let's call her TEAL -- is just not getting enough. She wants that man to be remade. Hell, she wants him made from scratch. She'd like him to "literally design a man" for her. (Literally, Sarbs! Get thee to the lab!) Little girls need love. He thinks he covered that when he said they need to be nurtured. She thinks girls should be doted on, but Sarbdeep isn't so sure about that "doting thing." He has some concerns about his imaginary daughter becoming a "spoiled brat." That's "impossible" says teal. He likes the idea of an "equal, loving relationship." To this teal responds with a sort of pinched, condescending grin. It's just not good enough. Girls should be lavished with attention.

    Men in "our cultures" take the "stoic approach," says teal. They're stand-offish and cool. Let's add "stoic" to the list of words teal misuses. It's like they have their hands tied behind their backs, so we're back to that analogy. Remember when Sarbdeep was unable to sculpt his clay because he had no hands?  Before he got his "map" towards his life purpose of "exaltation?"

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  175. Noncast: Chasing and Burning pt 9

    In closing teal explains that if a person is in the process of "becoming conscious" they need a partner who is equally committed to consciousness. Otherwise, you gotta let that relationship go. Let's not sugar coat it. At this point Sarbdeep completely loses control of his face. He grimaces. He fidgets. Being a conscious person with someone who isn't committing to becoming conscious is kind of like "a politician being involved with someone who doesn't want to be public."

    Pow. There it is. In case you doubted that these are veiled threats about her ending their marriage, we're back to the whole, public versus private thing, which is right about where these tea things started. Sarbdeep has this emotional problem -- he likes to keep his private life private and it drives his "performer" wife absolutely crazy.

    "Well, on that happy note," closes Sarbdeep, aaaaaand they both crack up. There's a lot of giggling through this one, from both of them. It's a little surreal and we thought, and probably about releasing the nakedly apparent tension. And each of them, at different points, nervously asked the other what they were laughing at. She, of course, was very definitely laughing at him for being a robotic anchorman. But he took it with aplomb and laughed along. They're just a happy couple, enjoying a good laugh, about these problems that so many couples have with this "please love me" neediness that so many women have. But see they're laughing so we know it's not teal who's desperately chasing an unavailable and "stoic" man.

    Hello! He's British! Stoical? Reserved? Stiff upper lip? Nah. Not him.

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  176. Sorry for the delay on this one. The weekend was nuts and we spent most of the day yesterday with no internet. So that was fun.

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  177. "Arcturians go home!" / "No dual citizenship for soul forks!" / "Stupid Space Mexicans!" / "Never mind the wall at the border, where's our space shield? Fucking Demotards!"
    you are killing me hhahahahah
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    "…like a mosquito, I intend to drain people of their resources or deny them the healing they need because they lack the money."
    man…she is even saying it and the followers love her for her honesty. Gosh.
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    "I'm betting they were one-time fans of hers who got turned off."
    100% - just like me. I would have burnt it as well - call me dramatic :D
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    The disco dress is easily explained. 1. this was her second appearance on film without make up or turned down make up - so a dress like this ,which I would wear when I go dancing and shake my hips, was desperately needed to secure the self perception of "still sexy" in a mind of an insecure person like Teal. 2. Considering that her fan group of Facebook - and overall followers range from 18-24 years (click on her follower number on her fb fan page) and considering that she is tapping into the new fashion market, she better starts wearing the cloth she will attempt to sell. I am sure google search and keyboard will run hot once Teal starts to attempt same techniques which she uses for her spiritual material. sTeal.
    For everybody who loves this party dress: It is from Vienna Rose Boutique and not too expensive. In case you have some happy Tealers reading your blog regular to hate you even more…at least they can buy now the same dress her icon is wearing on film podcast. She doesn't like to be reduced to her voice….that's why a podcast wouldn't have satisfied her exhibitionism. Believe me, I recognize one when I see him or her as I have it in my blood as well hahaha.
    http://vrboutique.co.uk/collections/dresses/products/beige-black-lace-front-bodycon-dress
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    I doubt that they bought the painting on one of her sale exhibitions (still print stock from the money they originally got for the billboard campaign) before the workshop in Prague. They probably ordered a personal painting matching their frequency (to talk in Teal's magic term value creating language for a product) …and then they got pissed with her because of the incidence on stage, when she couldn't take this guy. It doesn't make sense ATALL to have 400$ expensive burning session or this guy is an idiot and has plenty of money by selling drugs on the street. Wouldn't be surprised if they are part of Team Teal Marketing campaign. Using cold fire stuff and giving Teal a reason to explain to the world why she isn't a illumibla and reptibla.
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    Gosh was there really a need to get curious about John Wayne Gacy's clown make up? I am back on track with my clown phobia after seeing the image grrr…

    to be continued

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  178. ...

    "She's the one who, by her own admission, "is never satisfied with the intimacy level in relationship" and wants her men to "gestate" her and carry her around in a giant Baby Bjorn."
    gosh this image in my mind is hilarious. But hey, fair enough, a true desire of hers, considering how much she enjoyed when Fallon was touching her non stop (which would drive me c r a z y) - not making fun of her desire, just the images in my mind go crazy right now :D

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    the whole "love chaise thing" - she is not taking about archetypes, she is ourely talking about herself. Although I really like Sarbdeep on film, I am pretty sure that he goes into the male empty box many times…which must Teal freak out considering her enormous consume of attention. So the empty box of men is the death box of Teal's.Secret: you need to let them have it…for a happy marriage ppsssst. ( ;
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Huy-oOiDMLE

    This is based on my observation that Sarbdeep glazes a lot and zooms out (also shadow house). I think his brain is slowly overloading. Probably because he married his therapist aka spiritual guide (sounds much better) who is constantly working on him. The whole episode was just strange to me because you can see that she was describing herself, constantly critizing Sarbdeep for taking "breaks". Well this is my interpretation. I agree with you, that the info she gave was all based on common psychological profiling. We all end up being a mix of mum and dad, her best and worst traits and we chaise the minus account of attention from our parents to the rest of our lives.

    Teal is right now in a phase of blame…the next phase will be anger, then she will realize that her parents/all our parents…are damaged by life as well…then she might see what her parents let go of and managed to give to her although they never received it themselves…then she will realize that her mum and dad have a name and are separate people with their own problems and then she will start a friendship with them or go back and hate them forever. Tealers will follow her realizations…which are pretty common in this kind of age she is in. You see, this whole actuarian stuff is so programmed in the brains of the followers (well done Teal - there was no other way that people would have listened to you - I understand) …they see the human Teal as a small side affect of being an arturian hanging around on earth instead of seeing Teal for what she is: a smart business oriented human who tries to figure out how to fucking get happy on this planet.
    The laughing at the end was pretty obvious (and at the beginning): Teal is probably throwing tantrums every day and now Sarbdeep is finding himself in front of her listening to her teaching about how to solve this problem. This is indeed ironic. The agressor becomes the teacher. Well I guess Sarb likes it this way. Can't figure him out. He seems smart and intelligence - how can he not see. The only thing I can understand is the new exciting life as being part of this business. Whatever … I just wonder.

    Teal, of course, forgot to give the REAL remedy for all this shit with relationships. Although you maybe grew up and never had enough attention

    "She's not a marriage counselor. She's on her third marriage"
    Her councealing is obvious. If you don't get what you want from the guy, fucking leave him and find a new one in 3 weeks. Well the marriage councilor title was given by Sarbdeep with a sarcastic vibe in all fairness. This time Teal didn't claim it herself :D wow.

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  179. "What about Sarbdeep who is practically bending himself into pretzels to try to please her."
    I felt this one too. Touching and upsetting at the same time - can't make up my mind
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    "He's experiencing rages, for instance, and truly wants to know where that's coming from."
    Well I know exactly which way this will go. So she drives the calm and patient Sarbdeep nuts, he is wondering, she will say:
    "it is part of the healing" or
    "I bring out the shadows in many people so that they can heal it" or
    "I observed that the human race is getting very angry around me - which is part of my arcturian healing powers - they activate painful patterns so that they can be healed"
    Sarbdeep would probably answer to all 3 versions: "wow that's amazing - I will try my best".
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    Well let's be grateful that Sarbdeep is not made out of clay as we probably wouldn't recognize him after encountering the Teal Potter day by day.
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    "At this point Sarbdeep completely loses control of his face. He grimaces. He fidgets."
    … I missed my popcorn. This was priceless. Teal stripped down was talking. I think she was fed up talking to us in this complicated spiritual terms. This was so Real Teal. Love it. Real Teal is really funny. I wish I would see more Real Teal and not sTeal.

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    And LV you are a bit too much SArbdeep sided. Can't you see - HE IS THE FUCKING CAUSE OF ALL HER PROBLEMS.

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  180. On a side note: I do see many positive effects on young people by following her - she certainly guides the attention to very important building sites in a human being. Although she is repeating other teachings and sometimes adjusts them with her own intelligent assumptions and ideas and although EVERYTHING is tinted and motivated by her own pain story... I do think that she plants some useful seeds. It will just take a while for the young followers do undo all the knots.

    I also like to see her without make up. This surely is a big step for her and it shows a bit of vunarablity on her side. I really think that she really really really wants to heal and work hard for and on it. It feels true to me.

    For every Teal-the-all-knowing-Arcturian Fan: in her latest workshop she was talking in excitment about the process of Soul retrieval, which she started to practice recently. Now ask yourself the question: How on earth can the all-knowing-arcturian miss out on this crucial healing process for 29 years? Fucking google didn't suggested it till now. Thanks god we have the Lavaughn records. No?

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  181. "In which Ward Cleaver and the Black Dahlia code-talk about their relationship problems."

    Hahahaha! Yeah, it's pretty friggin' hard not to read stuff into their dialog... based on that 'sub-text' stuff I have concluded that Sarbdeep wants sex with Teal more often than Teal wants sex with Sarbdeep and that Teal had to resort to a 'time travel healing extravaganza' (god, I can't think how she expects to be taken seriously!) in an attempt to manipulate him into thinking he had a problem of only being able to experience love through his dick, but now he was cured - thus solving the problem of having to have so much sex with him. They might be better off just coming straight out with their relationship issues rather than leaving it to people's imaginations, hahahaha! In fact, that would have been a MUCH more interesting conversation than that constant fucking lecture mode of hers.

    On the other hand, I have learned something from teal... navel gazing is not all it's cracked up to be.

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  182. "A mosquito? Mosquito's don't drain people of anything. They take just enough blood to be mildly irritating. Do you think maybe she was going to say vampire and thought better of it, because it might just sound a little too on the nose?"

    Hahahahahahaha! That's exactly what I think!

    A mosquito, hahahaha! On the other hand, she is pretty annoying. And at least with a mosquito you can have the satisfaction of swatting them while they're busy draining you. With a vampire you have to have all kinds of special equipment and a steely mindset. It could have definitely scared some people off. It was a smart move to compare herself to a mosquito rather than a vampire. It was also revealing.

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  183. ZZB I think it is exactly the other way around. I would be able to find at least 7 quotes of Teal which state (not that we wanted to know) that she loves sex - and A LOT OF it. I am sure Sarpdeep needs a break now. How did i end up thinking about their sex life?

    I noticed that I didn't finish the "remedy" sentence. Did you guys ever heard of the Lilith complex? It is a german book written by Hans-Joachim Maaz

    http://www.dtv.de/buecher/der_lilith-komplex_34201.html

    ...an talks about the unbalance between both archetypes Lilith & Eva. Lilith was rejected by Adam and Eva was made out of his rips (sorry I am not a christian). To use more dramatic words: Lilith was the whore and Eva the holy mother. Women of today struggle to unit them inside themselves. As a result, the mother-child relationship suffers. The unexplainable deep guilt in many women and mothers...well explained and understood. fantastic book - but sadly only in german.


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  184. Buying one of her paintings and making such a production out of burning it to make a point (whatever that point might have been) was so idiotic that they deserved to have it not burn.

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  185. "Uuuhhh....

    "Winter, are you taking notes?" ~ J"

    I'm sure he is. Oh wait, maybe not... isn't taking notes Blakey's job?

    Hahaha, what a circus! Definitely not a cirque du soleil though, more like cirque du macabre.

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  186. "So her lengthy explanation of why women stay in bad relationships gets a rating of about "mostly false," as opposed to "pants on fire." That's a refreshing change."

    Hahahahahaha!

    "But a good bit of the time she just sounds like Cliff from Cheers."

    I beg to differ, teal is definitely not funny.

    I only made it a fraction of the way into the video before I lost interest, so I didn't see that gruesome ending you described. Which is good and necessary... I am very committed to my Shaolin monk training routine, and I only have a very limited amount of time to spend on things that don't contribute to my growth, and all it take's is a couple of minutes watching Queen Mistress Professoress lecturing her court on video, to give me all the opportunity for growth that I can handle.

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  187. "I would be able to find at least 7 quotes of Teal which state (not that we wanted to know) that she loves sex - and A LOT OF it. I am sure Sarpdeep needs a break now."

    I'm not going to speculate about their sex life. I don't want that in my head. I'm just ever so grateful that she doesn't make THAT public. Dear God, keep at least a little of the mystery.

    But GA, seriously, you don't think teal talking about how sexual she is has anything to do with how sexual she is or isn't in reality do you? It's just teal drawing attention to her body and sexy sexiness as she finds excuses to do in all her blogs and broadcasts. She's got to keep people interested in her profound spiritual wisdom somehow.

    "How did i end up thinking about their sex life?"

    Precisely my point. You weren't given much of a choice now were you.

    I'm not familiar with that book, GA. Sounds interesting. I love Lilith. I've always thought of her more in terms of female power on every level and how it's been demonized. Adam needed a more submissive woman.

    That dichotomy is more frequently called the Madonna/Whore complex -- Mother Mary vs. Mary Magdalene. Never mind that there is ZERO scriptural evidence of Mary Magdalene having been a prostitute. That's already a cultural myth many steps removed from scripture. But we definitely do this: woman are either maternal and benificent or sexy. We're either smart or sexy, too. Can't be both. Can't be whole people or anything. That's just way too threatening.

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  188. GA... that teal loves sex - and a lot of it, is just a cover story. Hahaha, but really, I don't think she loves the act of sex so much as she loves the power she is able to wield with sexual energy.

    As an outside observer it seems to me that in the past teal seems to have preferred moody and reserved, slightly effeminate cowboy types with a smoldering sexuality. What else can you do but fuck their brains out??

    Sarbdeep does not fit that pattern. Granted, he is reserved. And maybe he does have a smoldering sexuality. Still, I don't think teal's attraction to him is so much physical as it is psychological. Plus she got a bitchen last name out of the deal.

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  189. Btw, GA, that "empty box" video is hilarious. And I think there just might be some truth in that. I thought at first you were referring to the "man cave." Men absolutely need their alone time. The thing is, so do I. I need a man cave. I'd say woman cave but I'm not given to cheap double entendre. I prefer to let my ideas stand or fall on their own.

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  190. Well - my mother was hot and an ok mother. But she was never mother enough to me because when she went of, rising to fame in her profession, it did indeed compete with the breast feeding time and the overall presence to me. So she planted a seed of hotness in me, self confidence but at the same time I was always looking for "mothers"…even till now and traces of confidence loss. So i wonder: there are interesting constellations in the basketball world. Hot wive, pushes out 3 children in a row, he gets sex twice a day, every day!!! to overcome the straying thing in the celebrity world were women would do anything for a D&C handbag….she makes sure she looks hot every day, her body jumps back into a slender form after 3 month AND she is at home all the time with the nannies. As soon as she shows interest in her own business venture, the whole thing collapses. I honestly never met somebody who fulfilled both sides at the same time and being in a happy marriage - did you guys?

    ZZB & LV ok I really don't care about their sex life. I am only interested in understanding the concept of this interesting relationship between both of them. ZZB you could be right :D and LV I know about the power in bed. Some women really don't enjoy sex so much but the horniness and dependency of men about & to them. Once the men looses interest…these women really get pissed and lost at the same time. Not sure if Teal is one of them. It could fit but there are also many reasons why she wouldn't fit. Who cares. They know. Hope they have fun together ( :

    yes the empty box. My man was so excited about this video. Since watching it, he is actually declaring to me that he is going now into his empty box and I have to laugh. Before that, I got annoyed by seeing him doing nothing. Now I am fine with it. I guess you could call it an unintentionally meditation box hahahhaha

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  191. GA, the women who enjoy the power of sex over men but don't enjoy sex thing is a button pusher for me on a lot of levels. I think it sets women back. I know I've mentioned this post many times that I did on The Giving Tree, mainly because there's a lot in it. And one of the things I address is raunch culture and this exact phenomenon of women exploiting their own bodies as commodities without ever really owning their sexuality. I mean Paris Hilton, who is now exploiting lesbian subtext to sell hamburgers, was chatting on the phone while having sex in her infamous "sex tape." Eeewww... It's just so much harder with her around. I really think that if women en masse really explored their authentic sexuality, instead of selling a false image of male-centric fantasy, it would thoroughly disrupt the social order.

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  192. Did you see this?

    http://youtu.be/pk6SoSnIzDM

    On the up side, teal actually names a source. On the down side, it's Barbara De Angelis, the multiply divorced relationship expert with the diploma mill "PhD." Kind of hard to take that seriously. She's been married more times than teal.

    http://www.cracked.com/quick-fixes/the-3-most-spectacularly-full-crap-experts/

    The video is interesting, though, if only to watch teal and Sarbdeep take the piss out of each other. She took being called a "vampiric witch" surprisingly well, I thought.

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  194. ( :
    .... oh I remember
    I do think that Teal feels very confident to sexually please a man. It is a very dominant trade in her self perception & definition. And as she said herself: she is such a good tease ( ;

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  195. "I do get your point but many of the women who got raped when they were children have a really hard time to reconnect with their own sexuality in a healthy way. Their are two extrems born out of it. One will shut down for the rest of their life and hate sex and the other will be overly sexy, trying to keep up with an image they created in their minds and they need to feed."

    You will get no argument from me on that. And even the women who weren't molested and are, all the same, exploiting their own flesh, are injured. We live in a culture that commodifies the female body and we're all injured by it. I do get that. I just think it's past time to start demanding our power back instead of selling ourselves into slavery. And I think Paris Hilton needs to go away.

    I saw this this morning and just felt sad.

    http://feministing.com/2014/08/06/why-meghan-trainors-body-acceptance-anthem-all-about-that-bass-is-disappointing/

    This song is being billed as all about body acceptance and it's so not. It defines female self-esteem as dependent on male approval. And it exalts female curves at the expense of female slenderness. It still pits women against each other. It's hideous. If it were about a woman extolling the virtues of her slender body and slagging fat chicks, it would be condemned by the same people who are praising it. That they do not see the irony. (Note the correct use of the term.)

    I'm trying hard to understand the De Angelis video. I wish it were that easy for the sleeper to awaken. But saying you're awake and being awake are not the same thing. I do like her necklace, though. It looks like Emma Swan's necklace in Once Upon a Time. I'd wear that.

    http://celestial-reflections.blogspot.com/2013/10/once-upon-time-there-was-chymical.html

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  196. No wonder you like those necklaces, LaVaughn! I am reading this book here now called "Anam Cara" about Celtic spirituality by John O'Donohue and here is a passage I came across:

    "The Celtic mind was never drawn to the single line; it avoided ways of seeing and being which seek satisfaction in certainty. The Celtic mind had a wonderful respect for the mystery of the circle and the spiral. The circle is one of the oldest and most powerful symbols. The world is circle; the sun and moon are too. Even time itself has a circular nature; the days and the year build to a circle. At its most intimate level so is the life of each individual. The circle never gives itself completely to the eye or to the mind, but offers a trusting hospitality to that which is complex and mysterious; it imbraces depth and height together. The circle never reduces the mystery to a singe direction or preference. Patience with this reserve is one of the profound recognitions of the Celtic mind. The world of the soul is secret. The secret and sacred are sisters. [Teal would disagree on that I suppose]. When the secret is not respected, the sacred vanishes. Consequently, reflection should not shine too severe or aggressive a light in on the world of the soul. The light in Celtic consciousness is a penumbral light."

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